Quote:That's an interesting story, old friend, and especially because you had that dream about him before he died. I have had relationships of this sort, where an "instant" connection formed. For instance, I had a friendship with a woman years ago which formed the exact second that I met her on the stairs of our apartment complex. Our eyes met and it was as if we had always known each other. This was not a physical attraction but simply a deep "knowing" kind of friendship which seemed to materialize out of "nothing" and if you have experienced this kind of thing then you understand what I mean.
Am glad you found it interesting. I definitely know what you mean about the deep "knowingness" aspect, which is a big part of the reason why i very much believe in other lives of some sort....
Quote:It always makes me wonder when I look back over my life if there were things I was "supposed" to accomplish with some of my relationships and if I have failed them. In all honesty I have never been a particularly stable friend and "lose" relationships regularly along the way. I actually have No long term relationships of that sort except for one recently renewed, from the very distant past, which confuses me a bit, and I am strictly loyal to family only. I relate to the "wounded relationship" syndrome also.
Just gonna share some perceptions... I'm no Dr. though. As i sure you know, looking at it as "failing" isn't the best way to approach it, though i know we often can't help such feelings coming up....
It could be a few things, or a mix of things... Perhaps your Total Self rolled together this person called "Blink" from a pattern of lives/personalities which had been extremely clingy, and very attached to personal relationships... Especially ultra "safe" ones like friendships? Since friendships are often the most truly accepting, and closest to our spiritual energy relationships as Souls? Meaning most have had friendships were they don't feel the need to be something they're not, and they don't feel their are powerful strings attached, etc...
Maybe as Blink, you are meant to act as a balance to that, but often when balancing an extreme pattern, sometimes we end up going to the opposite extreme? Balance, balance, and moderation seems to be key to many things in life.
Quote:What I am interested in right now is finding a way to heal whatever relationships I have on a soul level. Perhaps my own interest in the "afterlife" has been a subtle nudge from the "guides that be" to complete some of the work I was sent to do here. I know I have gone very very far off any original path that might have existed; however, it seems that our "guides" can lead us back into a place where healing is possible, no matter where we find ourselves in our lives.
The question is, is this something that needs healing because it is something that bothers you and saddens you... And if so, how much do you want healing of it?
I've been reading your posts for a little while now, and this is the first time i've read you opening up about this, and sounds to me like a step in the right direction, and thank you for sharing here on this thread. I consider this a soul gift from an old friend. I think talking about stuff is sometimes more important than we realize, if only to get it out and try to express, and as we consciously express, these unconscious dynamics become a little more conscious, which makes it easier to work out.
Can i be very honest?
Maybe its best to try to heal it in C1, make some friends and C1 and try to maintain it, even if its hard..? I think this is what C1 is all about, relationships and them helping to work out our kinks and illusions in them.... Accept this part of you, because this is very important...but move on and develop, cause if its bothering you, its bothering for a reason, no? It sounds like you have already tried the acceptance part, but because you haven't fully done the extra steps, its still nagging at you... Our feelings are very important clues in what we do need to work on karmically, and its really again just about balance and experience.
Quote:I admit that I am rambling and will be very interested in answers from others here, but how fascinating it is to think that you had a connection with someone in your childhood that you maintained on a "soul" level until his death. Perhaps there will be another message from your friend. peace, blink
I like your rambling! Its refreshing after experiencing the ultra covert, say very little, "mysterious" and hard to know Blink. Feel like you are connecting and going beyond fear when you talk like this, especially out in the open. Again, i very much appreciate it

Deep Peace to you, and thanks a bunch