i hate life, i find it cold and depressing. i beg every day the lord will spare me suffering,im 44 now why won't he take me

yes but some people have it ok.and some don't where is the fairness, the thought of living another 40 years destroys me

i didn't asked to be born, ok in your opinion what will happen when im dead

it's best i die rob, ive been around for a long time
i hate life, whats wrong with that. you have not got what ive got

Nomad,

There is no fairness in existence and the world, but it can be wonderful.  We are all an essence of God experiencing matter and interacting with each other.  Our minds create our individual realities, but we are unaware of this.  Our thoughts create realities, with consciousness writing on the template of a shared field of unconsciousness.  

You may say "that's crazy, I want the best for myself, but I always lose, I always have hardship."  But look at that statement.  Your conscious will has said at the same time that you want the best, but you believe you will have the worst.  And so, we create our realities without realizing it.  But to understand this, truly believe this way the universe works is to know your salvation.

You need to visualize what you want, and address the universe in a confident way.  Saying what you wish is yours, you are thankful for it.  Believe in it.  Sounds crazy, but it works.

Of course there are tragedies that are out of our control, but the power of our minds and our individual consciousness is astounding, and unknown to most people.

Try to experiment with the power of positive suggestions to yourself just before drifting off to sleep or on awakening.  Have complete conviction, without doubt.  Try this for two weeks, and see if you get results.  

You may have issues to work out that have made you tired, and without hope.  I say, try to look at the positive.  You can analyze your life, but you can also push for the positive.

For me, I've tried this method, and it works.  Without having contact with the dead, it has confirmed for me the existence of our souls, as a unique entity that must exist separate from physical reality.  This has changed my whole way of thinking and sent me on a spiritual quest to investigate mind, spirit, consciousness and our true nature.

Best to you,

Matthew

thank you for your kind replies,i hope im not sounding greedy but i know things will be alright in the afterlife. if there really is one. i can't help the way people see me here

I should say in all seriousness, Nomad that we are what we think, and we bring to the afterlife what we take with us.  Therefore, thinking of ending your existence will not change your situation for the better.  Far better to understand and improve things now.  Use Blink's advice.   Cleave to life giving humor and activities.  Use my advice, by trying positive thinking to create what you need.  Use Rob's advice.  Ask for guidance and be open.


Matthew

Irene's right. When you least expect it, someone will come in and blow you away. It could be a soul mate, a spiritual advisor (when the student is ready, the teacher appears), but it will change your thinking. This is one reason why I advise you to be patient.

Love,

Bob