I think that Kathy's experiences were beautifully written and unique for her.  I find that I connect to my core essence or to some extent everything when I am in meditation.  It is during these sessions that I intend to request that certain hindering beliefs be removed which are blocking my perception.

Has anyone done it like this?  Stated an intention/request to have the block removed, and then seen the result?

I think we all have to be more proactive like this, instead of reactive.  Life is a participation activity, and rather than feeling lost and acted upon, I intend to initiate the action!

I'll let you know how it comes out.

Love,

Matthew

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The Vanguard is here, and they're ready to roll...  Soon in a few years Pluto will be moving into the testing sign Capricorn the sign of big business, big politics-government, big money, and overall economy...and Pluto brings upheavals... Even before this Pluto will be conjuncting the Galactic Center point at different points...  Ought to be some interesting times...indeedily.

Justin said:
Being a people oriented person (though impersonal), i've often wondered, could i just say goodbye to it all, and go to a mountain or forest and live completely by myself and not be dependant on anything civilized, or any person and yet still be completly happy?  And then bring back this tempered self to give self away in service and only "care" about this with no thought of my own desires and yet still be completely happy?

I think the motivation in this idea is admirable, Justin. If this is your desire, to simply live in compassion 100% of the time, I admire you.  I do think that, for all of us, our desires, whatever they may be, are what lead us to knowledge.  The type of buddhism my mother practices acknowledges desires and encourages them.    Certainly we should not run willy nilly after them aimlessly but they are a source of inspiration and motivation for us, are they not?  Perhaps you are wise to set your goals high.  

Personally, my path is a little disorderly...oh, well!!!!!

But anyway...I am presently working with a meditation cd which states clearly that the universe does not judge our desires.  However, the meditation does connect me with a universal "source" and keeps me on a particular "path" on the way, which, I believe, keeps the meditation on a level which is positive.

nadia

Confession to make! (And in doing so I am coming out of the closet, so to speak)

Reading the original post I have to reply back to front as it were.

I had no previous interest in nor wanted anything to do with anything spiritual until I came across a native american healer around April this year.

My life has since turned upside down and I now live to the best of my ability within the experiences I learned...Which is now a life of giving and compassion in both a professional and personal role.

One massive awakening in the most extreme scenario that lasted for about 4 months has led to my concrete belief that something positively exists.

It all happened in one fell swoop!. At first I was too "awakened" and in a position that I would dearly love to attain again to worry about my mental stability. The whole thing was so complete and everything was visible and completely comprehendable, so much so that that everything was known, to the amazement of all who know me to the point where nothing was invisible and anything enquired by anyone was answered with complete accuracy to any question put to me. In this the consensus was that I was not insane but something strange had happened!....Everything about me changed, my life changed...others around me were getting wierd things happening to them too...At this point I could not touch anyone as it was as if I had some sort of massive power that could transfer through my hands....(I did touch a few people and miracles took place..)Then I started to worry about my sanity because I started to question the things that were happening to me and others around me. Most of all I worried about this native american healer. I was in full blown telepathy, not only that but he would appear almost like a purple hologram, and not only that but things were appearing that he sent from from over 3,000 miles away (yes real physical things that he told me he would send, that duly arrived) At this time my chakra's, which I had never heard of or knew about before were firing at full blast, also there seemed to be a brilliant white light that shone directly through me, also my meditations (which I had suddenly learned how to do and was spending around 12 hours a day doing) were more real than what had been my normal life before....These meditations were turning out to be the most amazing "ultra reality" events that were having real effects in my daily life...During this time I went to a spiritual retreat for a week-end (a very respected one of world reknown) and there this new magical world I had entered re-confirmed it's existence. At this point due to my belief by now that I had gone psychotic or was dilusional, (as by now I was behaving and pretending for all the world as if nothing undue was happening in my life and not saying a word to a living soul) I searched for the proof of the reality of my experiences.
Eventually I told this native american healer that I considered this as abuse. He was very sad as he seemed to think it was a very special gift he had shared with me, but I insisted that due to my fear of loosing my sanity that I translated it as abuse. He slowly left me over the course of the following week, leaving sad little tokens all over the place until eventually I am where I am today, with no power at all, not even the ability to meditate anymore.
At first I searched like an obsessed bloodhound to find the sense in it all. To find my madness in order to heal it. Now I look back in the cold light of day with all the searching of that time over.

My conclusion is now concrete to me. It took a long time to decide as I will only accept absolute truth. If it cannot be proved, it is not true. There is so much that can be proved. My life has changed completely. I know all this stuff is real and I was very fortunate to have been able to experience it. I would love to experience it again and in my own way I am trying. Should it ever happen again, the next time I would be prepared and know how to handle it. It was "The Full Monty", and all I can say is "It's Awsome".........

Sorry it was so long, I'm not good at expressing myself well.

Love to you all

wshtoyou

Recoverer I'm so glad you wrote back as I have a feeling that you know what I'm talking about...

Prehaps I am afaid of my higher self?

Prehaps I am just plain scared of what I am capable of?

Already one little step at a time is reaping huge rewards not just to myself but to others so desperatley almost incomprehensibly in need...?

It's a huge responsibility, and I've been known to get it wrong...but, but, there is so much more....This is all new to me and it's scary...!

At times nothing is there, at others it explodes like "A Champaigne Super Nova"...

Ain't life incredible if you let it!

any guidance appreciated

wshtoyou

Recoverer I love you too..

It really is that simple is'nt it!

Just let myself be guided by my higher self, one little step at a time.

Right is intrinsic in the higher self as all is somehow known. The art is to know it, be aware and be guided by it.

Will try to keep on target and not go catapulting about in all directions.

I think it's called faith, faith in what cannot be seen and yet is understood.....

Keeping in touch with that higher self...

thanks, and thanks....

Hi fellow questioners,

Getting back to Matthew’s request for personal experiences regarding removal of perceptual blocks and beliefs that hinder us.

I’m finding that using the dialogues on this board to be of great help in bursting perceptual blocks to allow acceptance and PUL to flow more easily.  I’m referring to the simple interactions between individuals and the various ways people present themselves.  Take for example, WF’s changing pictures to reflect her individuality or mood.  Do I sense within myself a feeling of betrayal when she does this and say how dare she. She is so wrong for changing the fixed image I have of her. Do I question my feeling of being betrayed and proceed to recognize my belief that she is breaking the rules and attack her for this? Or do I take this a bit further and question my gut reaction and than examine it only to find that it is only some dumb personal belief the my ego is clinging to and let this belief go.  As a result, my tunnel vision opens a little wider to the possibility that she maybe taught me, not only about my own biased beliefs but also that I have the freedom to play too. 

Whew, that was hard work but let’s up the stakes a bit more.  Now what if she chooses to continue the game by giving herself a whole new name on the board and post using a completely different style just to project and play with another expression of her personal beliefs.  Would my ego again not allow me to applaud her in her creativity?  Would I again let my belief that it is breaking the rules, take over and feel betrayed, or could I be able to let the system crash begin by letting go of my ego and let the fun begin. 

For me, it’s a process of interacting with each other on an ongoing basis that helps me to access the subconscious through my emotions to burst the ego to open myself more and to hopefully access my higher self.  That’s the one that is not dealing with a set of beliefs that the ego has a full time job protecting to keep the status quo.  That’s my core self which can see through the persona, the fear, and the others so called weird/wrong actions to the core self.  But all I have to do is set my ego on the shelf when someone else’s words or actions ruffle this birds feathers, thingy an ear to my gut, question what am I afraid which is preventing me from celebrating the other, listen to the possibilities then just let that sucker (the ego) go.  No easy task and sometimes it hurts and since I can’t know ahead of time, nor do I want to, I like surprises, in which direction the teachings will come to get rid of my ego blocks just to have the perks that recoverer described.  It can be scary, this changing my mind about someone or a dearly held belief.  Of course in some instances, I use other methods described, but I still find that being on the front line by interacting with the people around me like those on this board to be the most educational/experiential belief crasher.

Cooze remember in the words of that Great phellersofer, DocM, “This, above all, I feel is true. That through meditation, relaxation, playful interactions with each other, we should experiment and learn to connect.”  Sorry Matthew, I’m gonna’ use this quote to death because I love it so-but I’ll always give you credit. Thanks for the thread which allowed me to put my two cents in on another day off from work.

Love to all, Jean

Thank you for the feedback laffingrain.