Quote:Dear all,
I thought about closing my account after my last message, but really, after closing my account the only thing I would do is come back
BECAUSE I refuse to run away from my responsibility and I want to solve whatever problem is mine.
I titled "wishing to make a big mistake" basically because I knew it was a mistake and I hoped most of you would realize that I did not necessarily thought everything I said. Anyway, I wish to apologies to those of you whose feelings I have hurt and if you think I should leave this board, I might agree with you at some level at this point.
I feel bad, because I realize I made many of you feel bad and somehow, I did not think it would be go this far. I consequently removed the topic, also because I am really ashamed and embarrassed to have caused you such great harm, seemingly.
I am sorry to tell you, that this was the general thought most of people around me live in. So, in stead of "spitting at you all", like expressed, I am could chose to explain you what I see, if you still feel like listening.
Therefore I ask you, after my last topic, do you still feel like listening to me?
I also wish to state, that I do not plan to recommence such thing.
My honest perception is that you are just looking for attention because you lack self love. I do not believe this is something for us to get mad about, but i wish for your own happiness that you understood the principle of Like attracts Like, and that no amount of attention from others, or any outside circumstance is going to make you happy within yourself.
As i learned through personal experience, you must give of yourself to others, think less of self, and often balance your body, before you can really start to feel some measure of wholeness within.
Nothing but your giving Love to others and appreciating all the things "good" and "bad" that have happened in your life, will fill up that void.
We all need to seek guidance within. Yet, some here have given you really good advice...but the questions is, will you listen to any of it? Are you truly apolizing?
Continue to post if you want or not, either way it will not bother me.
With Love