Blink,

Right On!!! You do GOOD work.

Keep on Truckin'

Love, Jean LOL

Let’s get back to the topic. Is what Madsketcher experiencing real?
His story does match up to others. These people are also around his age. I know what your experiencing is real. I know about the other strange things that you see and experience. I'm sure you question who you are everyday. Why you? Why would they spend so much time and "money" on you? You have something they want. "They" aren't "normal" humans and either are you. You've always known you were different, now you’re starting to see? It's been a vicious circle of power and control. This war sucks. Hang in there.   

I suppose it all depends on how you define reality.  But I don't think encouraging paranoia makes sense unless you are there, on the ground with Madsketcher.

Our realities are subjective.  The vast majority of us may see reality as one way, and only a few another.  However, as a society there are certain common beliefs and laws that we all agree to and share.

For those of you encouraging Madsketcher to figure out the conspiracy of coughing and radio waves beamed to his home as a form of attack - I do not doubt that could be one man's reality.  But think about what you are saying when you encourage him to keep pursuing that conspiracy.  If you believe in the conspiracy - maybe you could help him, and independently verify that it does exist. 

If not, I am not sure that you will help him find PUL - which many on this board see as our ultimate purpose on this planet and in this shared reality.

Matthew

Oy vey.  Lord have mercy on us.  Alysia, where are you when we need you?  Dave, the voice of reason?  There is a difference about being open minded and believing these last few posts.

Jung spoke of a "synchronicity" - the coming together of seemingly impossible coincidences of universal and personal forces at certain times.  We all have experienced this.  And we have all had episodes of impossible coincidences and dejavu.  However, the power of our imaginations is such, that they may take a running dive off the deep end, and pursue a tangent too far off from reason.  I am not into the labels Jean, but I also do not believe in encouraging conspiracy theories. 

Tell me, where does enlightenment or pure unconditional love come into one's life, if all one is doing is looking for hidden devices, and collusions?  We have a very liberal minded board - I usually am myself.  The "I'm ok, you're ok" attitude is usually a good one.  I don't think that those of you encouraging the conspiracy/paranoia are necessarily helping the situation.  How would I help?  I would advise the person to live life day to day - concentrate on the positive, try to go by purely objective evidence, and seek the help of others including trained medical proffessionals.  I also would avoid using hallucinogens and drugs at all costs.

The best to you Madsketcher,

Matthew

I've been reading this thread Doc, but I feel bad because Madsketcher is no longer with us and I think it was something I said about his name. I just hope he read my apology but I doubt it.
still, look at what he created here, we all just ganged up on him it seems.
we are all acting like he's still here, as if he's reading our comments..but I doubt it.
look at us...from his point of view, I'm thinking he's thinking we are like flies on poo poo, just more of the conspiracy plot that he believed in so strongly.

I don't know...some PUL is here for sure, some good words, some good thoughts, some not, but as for me, I've gotta watch my big mouth..

so if you be a lurkin madsketcher, look what you did here to bring us all together for better or worse to expose the human need within to lift another human being from the abyss of their own mind fabrications of which we all have plenty.
in the end it just boils down to we always need each other and need to be listened to so bad for what is going on underneath the delusions...
he sketched his name here but now we'll never know if he's ok...I will see his perfection then, one way or another as in the end I'm sure we'll all be just fine..we're only dreaming...and sometimes we have nightmares..thank god the sun always rises..does it not?

Good points Alysia and Matthew. There really is no point in trying to figure out a conspiracy. Whatever will be, will be. Good always wins anyway, so there is nothing to worrry about. I prayed for you madsketcher. I hope your ok.

Hey everybody,

Thanks for the support/ideas/comments.  I don't think anyone here is really encouraging me to "pursue" whatever is going on.  It is what it is, and while I DO once in a while jump onto a search engine to look at random conspiracy websites after getting aggravated by something unusual that happens to me, I tend to branch off and stop caring again. 

I never cared about things like conspiracy theories until all this strange activity started.  I STILL don't care all that much!  I don't really waste too much time reading up on this stuff.  I don't have a lot of patience for the abundance of information that is constantly shifting and told from several different perspectives (though many are similar to mine) and I have never been a very political person.  I've also got a bad case of adhd/laziness. 

Quite simply, I noticed an overwhelming amount of things that didn't make sense to what I was used to in a VERY SHORT period of time.  I'm not going to call it a conspiracy, but I believe in my heart that it is real and that something is happening that a lot of people do not realize.

Some things I never added to my already bizarre story: When I was working at my university position and began to notice all the grad students/faculty coughing and clearing their throats violently around me, that wasn't the extent.  They took things out of my vernacular and fired them at me at every chance they could.  Everyone was suddenly replying to anything I said with "Cool!" and "Fun stuff!" and man... it was very odd.  When I snapped my fingers in the xerox room (by myself), a faculty member would come down and do the exact same thing.  Some graduate students would repeat things I said in the day (while talking to someone else) several hours earlier.  After humming a specific tune to myself ( something MADE UP ), I'd hear a graduate student humming it with a sick grin on her face.  And the nose rubbing!  They all had to rub/scratch at their nose like coke-addicts while talking to me.  What's funny is I could predict when this would happen a lot of the time, and even make my own little "drum roll" motion with my hands as someone walked out of the main office and cleared their throat exaggeratedly.  This was all very real (SEVERAL coincidences a day or not), and I still haven't told you everything.  I experienced these same strange "tactics" or "coincidences" while going to the local gay pride social.  I recognized one of the women there - from the building where I worked at the university.  She now works in IT on campus.  She is a great mind, but was a complete bully.  As we talked, the only thing she replied to me with was "That's cool" in a strange condescending tone - like I was 7 years old - with a great big smug look on her face.  It seemed like she somehow knew something about me, and that she was testing me.  Her girlfriend let out the famous fake cough that I've been rambling about.  God, I'm not even trying to sound nuts - these are just things that I have been experiencing. 

I just want people to believe me, but I know it's insane.  All I can say is that if you really knew me, you'd believe me.

I have some kind of a neurological problem that makes my walking look a little bit funny - to the untrained eye it's easy to not notice in certain situations.  So here I am, working in a department not only full of trained, educated eyes, but also scholars on such subjects as social psychology, stigma, and social change - mobilization.  Social wars.  Look... I'm just pointing these things out!  After the onslaught I'm convinced that there's something sinister behind it.  It may also explain why everyone there was suddenly testing my memory at the time.  After being laid-off, I was not only relieved because I wouldn't have to work in such stressfull conditions, but also because I hated my job. 

I've been at home since then, and have recently been working on my art (shameless self plug: www.madsketcher.deviantart.com)... I still feel/hear strange sonic activity, but it's not really bothering me that much.  I have been taking kava kava for about a week now and it really helps. 

Also, I have been smoking pot for the last week - but it is not making anything worse.  Things are still the same here at the house (not really a big deal).  I can put up with whatever is thrown at me lately.  Fortunately, it's nothing as bad as what was going on at my last residence, when I lived with four sketchy technology obsessed hermits.  I know you're going to scold me for the marijuana use, but honestly: It's the least of my problems.  Say what you will, but it's true.  I've actually been more active/motivated with it.

This random guy lives with us now (mom's new beau) - at first I didn't know what to think of him, but on the very night he officially moved in (no furniture or anything), I was bringing up secret societies to my mother as he sat in the living room with his newspaper.  As I started to go in detail, he shut me up with a loud exaggerated cough.  Ever since then he's been getting weirder and acting stranger - testing my memory: We were talking about Bob Ross and I mention that he died... and the very next evening, after he sees me watching a television show that references Bob Ross, he asks me "Didn't he die?"  But he's a pro at Jeopardy. 

Something about him just bothers me.  He acts like a lot of the main people I've been around since all this weirdness started - troubled, quiet, depressed in some way, damned near emotionless.  Hiding something.  Mom will never know him because she's not that deep of a person... so he could be anyone, really.  I'm not afraid of him or anything, but he gives off that same weird vibe that a lot of these people have been giving off.  He's also kind of like a broken record.  *Shrug* Oh well.  I'm confident in questioning what's going on around me, and not my sanity.  It's weird, but it is what it is and I have to accept it.  My mouse cursor hasn't been flinging itself across the screen lately - things feel a bit calmer than before.   

Blah, these posts never come out quite the way I want them to.   Just want to make it clear that a) I don't think everyone is in on some wacky madcap conspiracy against me because that's silly, b) I am totally NOT a danger to myself or anyone else around me (never have been), c) I've always been an optimist, all my life... and lately it's coming back stronger than before.

Thanks again for all the words - I didn't disappear... I have to take breaks from this site!

My thoughts on why she would reject your PUL?  First, tell me what that means.   I am guessing one of those words is "love" but I have no idea what the full acronym stands for.  Project Unconditional Love???

My thoughts on the woman's condition?  She definitely sounds like she's suffering from a mental illness... sounds nothing at all like what I experience.  I would never get to that point with what is going on (going wild and limb-flailing) - I mean, I know what people are willing to accept despite my attempts to explain what I have been witnessing and hearing since February.  Honestly, I don't really talk about it to anyone lately - save you guys on the forums.