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Mr_Satan
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This is the story of seeing my brother who had died. I was still a christian at the time. I had had a good experience at the church, so i decided to do some god chanting on my own at home. Having used marijauna yrs ago as a teenager, i thought that it might be a good relaxer in prep for this. I asked another christian, who was a user to get some for me.
I took a couple of tokes, sat on the edge of my bed and began chanting 'god' slowly and deeply, over and over. Focussing in an outward upward direction to where god is generally thought of as dwelling. After a while, i felt a rage come over me. I said to myself, this can't be god. Then i saw a large black tadpoll shaped thing as it glided through the air away from me. At the sound of my voice, or my presence, it turned and looked at me w red eyes. It had large triangular sharp teeth.
Frightened, i mentally pulled away from this thing. I then remembered that the pentacostals said that god lives in the solar plexis of a born again person. I set my focus on that area and recommenced chanting god.
Not long after, i percieved a person of golden aura, beaming golden light in all directions. He looked up at me w a look of love, total acceptance, joy, happiness and a very large smile. I had seen god, i thought! How reassuring! He conveyed all positive feelings.
Over the months, as i dwelt on aspects of what i saw, i realised that the smile and general look of the person was like my younger brother who had died many yrs before. He had a beaming smile. He had almost died 3 times before the final incident which did claim his life. He was a special person in our family. He enjoyed life, finding fun in so many things. I soon concluded that it was not, in fact god who responded, but my brother to whom i was closest in my family.
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