I just wanted to speak openly about the things that I have learned since coming to this site a few months ago, and to voice some fears, concerns, and hopefully things to ponder to get the same ion return from everyone here....

When I first got here I was a person who only viewed the Afterlife as being Heaven (from being brought up as a Christian) or as nothingness/oblivion. The fear of oblivion is what brought me to this site and opened up commentary between myself and Alysia and Gordon Phinn. They both gave me tons of confidence and information to look into....

Well, now I can gladly say that I do think that the Afterlife exists because of this information AND through experience. Now the greater struggle is understanding how the Afterlife works, which of course lead me to having MORE fears. I think the problem is the idea of losing my INDIVIDUALITY. I like being JG....

Being JG is all I can remember NOW, and what I have come to love and accept. The idea of there being a JG as far as my soul is concerned many times before is also acceptable because that in theory cannot be changed and had to be for me to be here NOW. Well, if this life is just a continuous cycle for us to learn and to "grow" which means that we will eventually die, review our last life and previous lives, and then....be reincarnated if we chose so that we lose the memory of that life!?

Well...in this life cycle I am happy with who I am. I have no idea what the future holds as far as my soul is concerned or what changes will come in my life, but I do know right now that I do not want to let go of this current life. I mean, it all seems like a horrible cycle of live, die, relive as someone else again. It almost feels like you should go through life as a person who never creates an identity or connections to family and friends, etc. because it all disappears. And even if it doesn't, you can't remember it...

I wonder if coming to this type of realization of your life and what it really means gives you the ability to control these types of things? I see that people don't concern themselves with death..EVER, until its their time to face it. I see that people don't concern themselves with the idea of an Afterlife or something different than what their religion teaches them. So does that mean that a part of growing is coming to these types of realizations that we all have come to?

Like the Matrix analogy per se. Or maybe you can live your next lives WITHOUT forgetting so you can expand on your being in life and in the Afterlife.
I want to know if I am missing something, or maybe I have found something within myself by questioning these things, and I want know who has info on this or have experienced the same questions. Gordon was telling me that you will have the option to just live in the Afterlife and NOT be reincarnated, but it can be boring and can stunt your advancement.

Well, right now, I am willing to be bored so I can continue to be me. And honestly, I am still confused about a lot of this, but I am speaking from my heart, and I wanted to share these feelings with people who I know have more experience in the Afterlife and its meaning. So I am open to discussion on this and will add more if needed. And sorry for the book, but that is the only way I know how to communicate.....thanks.

-JG

I agree Ryan, you have a very healthy outlook my opinion. JG, I always appreciate your thoughfulness here. you always bring refreshing viewpoint also. lovely picture too, reminds me of the deep thinker pose and your posts reflect that you do think deeply.
my opinion Gordon did not lead you astray. I believe we can rest in the afterlife and do whatever takes our fancy as the individual that we are now at this moment. but I do believe change is consistent with evolvment of the soul. I don't think that we change overnight...it's more of a becoming process. we study on the other side too. many schools are available to choose from...schools of thought. take your pick, it's fun! don't have to pay rent while going to school either! if you need a good challenge, theres plenty of that to choose from. my sister trained horses, when she died she gravitated to her love of horses and aids these animals with her love and care. she told me this. she's a most forceful personality, darn near knocked me off my chair when she came for a visit!

you can be you for as long as being you pleases you...how much better could it get?

love, alysia

Spooky, I can always hear what u say. it resonates with me. to me I am aware of what looks like a speed up of time. the summer is now gone. I must prepare then. always is the sadness, but at the same time I am leaping for joy into the next day, whatever is there, and please make it a surprise! this can be arranged the guides will say. the spice of life is sometimes found in the surprises and how fast we can regain our lost footing. love, alysia

Mathew said: Perhaps others do not need to recycle.
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agreed. apparently its not that important to think about if you are in the now moment. always there.
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I'm an ACIM student; not that I would call that a religion or even ask for agreement on what I believe, but would like to express my thought here what impressed me concerning free will, another debatable subject for some and which your post brought up for me and thank you for the chance;

the first thing I read when I opened the book floored me: it said "free will does not mean you can establish the curiculum; it means only that you can elect what course you wish to take within a certain time period."

so, in a sense it was telling me I wasn't going to get out of hard study in the matter of building a character, or building whatever, even say, building a life, or building a relationship as I participated in life to learn of how much free will I could engage.
to me we are always becoming even when we die we are still becoming because there's always something to find out about if u subscribe to the probe thesis.

and I also agree about our connections, that we are one entity on unseen levels as yet perhaps, and one evidence of that is how your thought, causes me to respond to you here with my own. it is a connection. love, alysia