Thank you for your post laffingrain. It's good to see people are having similar experiences. Thank you for sharing.
And dear LightR_on, I think you speak very wisely. I think the problem might be with me needing to learn and grow more. I can see and understand what everyone is saying in my head but not in my heart though your commments really help.
I just want to say thank you to everyone that takes the time to explain things to me and share their experiences. You help me along my way and bring me confort.
Before joining this board it was just me, my books and all my answered questions.
It's difficult when you try to share your views and evidence with your mum for example and she answers politely but looks at you like you are not well in the head. My partner listens to me and then says I should stop reading so much about it because it's gonna affect my mental health.
Just to give an example of what I am dealing with, I told my partner I had seen my father, who past away when I was 14, during meditation. His answer was "you pretend to tell me your father came here all the way from the cementery in Spain where he's buried?".....

I think finally God felt sorry for me

and guided me here.
Peace, Love and Light.
Sandra.