Hi White Feather,

I just love that name.  Well, I am beginning to feel that there are partnered explorations happening when we are not noticing it.  Last night I found myself in an empty apartment with a round wooden table in front of me.  There was an envelope on the table with about 5-6 pictures on it.  I looked out the window and saw a big cadillac automobile sitting in front with the door slightly open.  Whoosh, I went somewhere after that but who knows?

Anything is possible so don't get discouraged White Feather.  I'm just a beginner too.  Your partner will come to you when the time is right.

love, blink

Hi White Feather,
I never did partnered exploration, so it's new to me, too. We can try it. My ideas and questions about starting it:

--With or without a meeting point? Maybe a physical one, maybe a nonphysical.
--An identification sign, a name, a picture?
--Informations shared while exploring we didn't shared on the board for confirmation after exploring?
--Any special tasks or aims while exploring?

Maybe you have a feeling what would be the best.

I once did an experiment with a friend; I imagined to take her to my special place out there and she should just "listen" what she gets. She had a daydreaming- like experience where we were together at a place, she said it was very soothing and peaceful, but I found no matches to the look of my special place.

You can contact me via the personal messenger service on this website (hope it works), and we can exchange our E-Mail addresses. And yes, don't worry if I answer not quickly, I will do.
Bye, spooky

Yes, Alysia, I did dream this last night.  Isn't that interesting...my pictures, the two or three visible were of people.  I was looking at one photo and it was like I looked "into" the photo.  It was a woman who looks like my aunt and I was so "into" the photo that I seemed to admire a flower on her dress and tell her how pretty she looked.  I don't know who the others were but I know there was more going on in the dream than I was aware of.  For goodness sake when there is an empty table with nothing but an envelope and some pictures there you certainly know what you're supposed to pay attention to!  I like your idea of "school" because I certainly feel that my perspective is changing all the time right now.

love, blink

Hi White Feather,
any suggestions concerning my ideas?
To say a time: Friday not, but on the other days I'm flexible with time, from afternoon to late at night (European time).
Allright, bye, spooky

Hi White Feather,
yes, it's allright!
Bye, spooky

Dear White Feather,

I think that your poem, I am really starting to worry, really struck a cord on this board. I know for me it certainly has.  In it you have included all the reasons why people come here and why we have such a desperate need to connect and be validated.  I call it a poem because it says so much in so few words yet captured one aspect of our group essence so eloquently; the part beneath the words that many of us write that cuts to the core of what we want from each other.  I cried when you wrote, “Maybe since I have no phone calls anymore, I am already dead and did not notice it,” because I have voiced this throughout the years when I’ve not connected with my sons when I longed to and laughed as you noted, “Maybe I should stop talking to myself” , or “Maybe I made all this up and ended up being so desperate that I am seeking for crazy solutions”, I really like that one and I think a lot of us can relate to it .  This board is one way to get that validation if you’re curious enough to trust in your imagination.  IMO you show it in this creative poem and in your courage to be persistent by coming to the main form with your request to partner.  I hope that this works out for you because I think that you are a person whom I would trust to give the story straight and simple and also because this partnering thing is our future way of operating for retrievals.  

Bottom line is that I cannot promise you that you won’t be attacked for saying the “wrong” thing , for example, by some posters but I can promise that with many others you will get wonderful tips on getting to know the very ones who love you unconditionally in a way that most humans cannot.  Keep up the good work and glad you’re hanging in here.

Jean    

P.S. I printed out your poem to remind me of some of my fears and negativity which sometimes limits me. Thanks. J

me too Mairlyn. I used to practice to be invisible. I would say to others "don't look at me, I am not here as I am invisible. if you do not see me you cannot hurt me, so do not see me, and I do not see you."

yes, well, those were the good ol days I guess I didn't love myself either. as a child, the protective device of being invisible, (sometimes literally, to hide in bushes) was a survival mechanism. it was a nasty childhood. but that is sometimes our reality to overcome. surely not asking for sympathy. I'm just glad I'm here, talking to you, and I have always felt close to you from day one. just thought I'd throw that in..