Hi Spooky,
Thanks for replying.
Every now and again I stop and take in the "now" of my existence. I have been doing it since I can remember. Part of that "now" moment is to really experience being in the now. I listen, smell, look, feel...just become aware of what I am aware of and experiencing. Part of that includes knowing where the compass points are and where I am exactly on this planet...which is why I get confused sometimes when trying to detect the compass directions in my "meditations?"
(guess I cannot be on earth!)....chuckle and grins...just possibly learn't somthing there!
The other thing is that I was really thrown in the EXTRA deep end when this started, and have been slowly backing out ever since trying to find some sort of logic and truth in it...therefore...If I ask "where am I" I get so many variations that what I do now is only believe what I can categorically whittle down to absolute certainty, hence my drawing a map and trying to find the place, or at least trying to understand why North seems to cover East as well?
Last thing...what do you mean by "how you use it and if you can control it and if you can stay grounded enough". That sounds really interesting to me...I've had some pretty way out there stuff going on, and I've gone through some pretty hard battles. I have become a better person for it. In fact, it is making me a new person.....and there is real power in this stuff....I think I'm begining to grasp it a little better but it still feels as if I am trying to sculpt with ball of mercury!
The truth is out there

wshtoyou