.... And to you Marilyn. To say you are married to a person called Maitreya, another ascended master...Please explain??

if I can't reincarnate...

if this life is the only physical one I'll get...

then I WANT, VERY BADLY, to be permanently snuffed.

How might I best conduct my life...

... instead of me having to live eternally in an afterlife I KNOW I'll hate?

I don't want hell, but I also don't want to "serve others and be selfless" (which is what "heaven" is all apparently all about... sort of like being a dog.)

I will discuss your 4 comments in succession.
(1) Brendan: "What happens to those who truly HATE, LOATHE, DEPLORE, and DESPISE God?"

In the spiritual realm every genuine and precious manifestation of God's love and power is counterfeited and you seem to have been victimized by a toxic brand of Christianity.  In biblical terms, you are spiritually "cold", but your acknowledgement of this fact is a hopeful sign.  The Risen Christ insists that He'd rather people be "cold" than "lukewarm" (Revelation 3:15-16).  To be lukewarm is to be apathetic or indifferent.  During Howard Storm's NDE, Jesus tells him: "The greatest hatred of God is to be indifferent to God.  A person who is indifferent to God is repelled by His light and love ("My Descent into Death,"  32)."  Beneath your deep revulsion towards God lurks a passion that can easily be transformed into the highest and most intense experience of loving devotion.  If you experience the real Christ behind the counterfeit distortions, you will grasp this insight.  My encounter with Him filled me with wave upon wave of liquid love intensifying to the point where I thought it might kill me, totally disarming me of my hostility towards God.  This experience launched me on a lifelong journey to unearth the precious truths buried beneath the distortions of a "churchianity" that offers just enough spirituality to vaccinate us against the real thing. 

I soon discovered the true biblical teaching about Heaven: this life is a not our true career and Heaven is not a place of static rest, a glorified nursing home.   Rather, this life is a school and the afterlife is our true career, full of ever increasing challenges and opportunities to grow and expand.

(2) Brendan: "But I do allow a REMOTE possibility of "it" {Yahweh) existing (and by extension, the Bible being true)."

Perhaps, this is a sign that the Holy Spirit is already beginning a marvelous work in your life, which will render moot your worries about Hell and annihilation.  Perhaps my developing discussion of Swedenborg's verifications can make such a  "possibility" seem less "remote."   Better still, I'd urge you to read the book by your spiritual clone, Howard Storm's "My Descent into Death."

The word "Yahweh" derives from the Hebrew verb "to be."  Its meaning is more fully revealed in God's self-disclosure to Moses at the burning bush.
Moses insists on knowing the name of the god who is sending him on a suicidal mission to liberate the Hebrews from slavery.  To grasp God's reply, it is vital to realize that in Moses' day a deity's name was thought to adequately express His essence. Elsewhere God has twice refused requests for His name (Exodus 32:29; Judges 13:18).   Instead of a name, God gives Moses a phrase based on the name "Yahweh": Tell them I will be whatever I will be has sent you (Exodus 3:14)."  God substitutes this phrase to stress three points: 

(a) Do not presume to reduce me to your culturally limited conceptual frameworks. 

(b) Know me primarily in terms of your experience of me and my gracious acts in your behalf, not in terms of theological abstractions.

(c) I will be whatever I will be for you.  But I also  reserve the right to be whatever I will be to other peoples.  I can reveal myself through their myths and religious symbols as well.  This implication is dramatically illustrated in Amos 9:7:

"Do you Israelites think you are more important to me than the Ethiopians?" says the Lord.  "True, I brought you out of Egypt, but have I not done as much for other nations, too?  I brought the Philistines out of Crete, and led the [Arab] Arameans out of Kir (in modern Iraq)."

At that time, Israel had neglected social justice.  So God reminds them that He has guided other peoples just as surely as He has guided Israel.  His implicit ultimatum is this: either take care of your poor, your widows and orphans, or I will abandon you and confine my self-disclosure to the myths, symbols, and mystical experirences of other religions from other cultures.  Since the Philistines and the Arab Arameans were divinely guided to the Palestine region, this text offers an intriguing biblical basis for Palestinian rights to a homeland.

(3) Brendan: "What place in Hell am I likely headed
     for?"
OK, let's assume for the sake of argument that you never make your peace with God.  I will answer your question in the upcoming discussion on my Swedenborg thread of his many visits to Hell and his discovery of the process whereby souls find their way there with other like-minded souls based on the principle like attracts like.

(4) Brendan: "Or might 'Yahweh' honor my true
     underlying wish...an abolish me as an entity...to
     be let me sleep peacefully forever?"

Both St. Paul (e.g. Philippians 3:19) and the Gospels
(Matthew 7:13) apply the Greek term "apoleia" (= annihilation) to active opponents of God's will and thus acknowedge annihilation as a postmortem option.  Modern sources confirm this option.  In this site's FAQ section, Bruce Moen notes: "Recent exploration has uncovered a sort of permanent death.  IT is extremely rare." 

At the time of his NDE, Howard Storm is a biblically illiterate atheist.  As he puts it, "I knew for certain that there was no such thing as life after death.  Only simple-minded people believed in that sort of thing.  I didn't believe in God or heaven, or hell, or any other fairy tales.  I [would] drift into... annihilation."  Accordingly, he describes his dismay as his NDE begins: "This wasn't right.  Why was I alive?  I had wanted oblivion...Could this be a dream?...But I knew that it wasn't.  I was aware that I felt more alert, more aware, more alive than I had ever felt in my entire life (10-11)."  He then relates his chilling ordeal in Hell, an ordeal only terminates when he reluctantly cries out to God for help and experiences a life-changing loving encounter with Christ.   Christ warns him:

"For some people this [Hell] may culminate in the ultimate annihilation of their being, if after they have existed in this eternity, they still do not seek their way back to God.  For others there is [even then] the possibility of salvation (p. 33)."

The Jesus of Storm's NDE concurs with both the Bible and Bruce Moen that even in hellaceous realms, souls can be retrieved if they are open to this possibility and willing to be transformed. 

During Storm's recovery, he experiences several angelic encounters which save him from certain death.  On one occasion, a credible witness observes the deceased Catholic mystic, Thomas Merton, hand Storm a book about the very cemetery where Storm is paying his respects beside Merton's grave.

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