Brendan..I'm curious about something..
Why do you assume the afterlife is limited to the bible's version? That is just one view among many..
I think you will be in for quite a surprise when you hit the other side..

I have another ..hmm, not sure how to qualify this.."feeling?" "intuition?" whatever..that your angst over the whole thing..the physical life, the need to control what your physical existance is and is not comes more from you current
physical psyche rather than from within the real you, that is your soul/spirit..
Just some random thoughts this morning..