cheer up Barbara; you have just elevated your friend alysia to status of dear abbey column. lol. not. I use this place a social outlet, yes, chit chat it is for some of us, yet on another level chit chat can be very useful especially if u remember to lighten up and not be so dreadfully serious. I see this place as a community also, but realize it is not that for many and I'm ok with that.

what I see Barbara doing is what is called a shift in consciousness happening now, at this point in time all over the world...this is not always comfortable but you seem to be doing ok from where I stand. as far as getting a response from your post, either here, or a response in your life movie anywhere, I find most folks are concerned with their own stuff and if I want to be responded to I must jump into their stuff as opposed to my own..it's what I mean about listening to each other for it do seem we each have something noteworthy to say about something. I rather enjoy expressing myself here, and if u think about it, so do others...we enjoy having the floor, and taking turns with the floor space, but gee, what would I do without this new fangled internet anyway? I'm sure glad it's here; thanks again Bruce...and for those books you put out.

as for how long it takes to write a book, well, everyday you are writing a book anyway by living your life, so if you choose to be technically writing one, that can be fun and enlightening also. the task can be like discovering yourself by exploring where u have been and finding closure on old issues so those issues do not impinge on the now moment.
I think you do have a sense of urgency that u are expressing here and it bears looking at. It is not that it's right or wrong, it's that this urgency motivates you to seek, so I say continue then, but seek within, not on the outside of you. we are not teaching you anything. we are here sharing stories in hopes to connect with life, with one another. that's a little different than teaching but might have the same effect. lol. I must remember to speak for myself only. I keep forgetting! I used to ask myself all the time "what are u doing on that board alysia?" lol. it's a legitimate question Barbara, and only u can answer it. now u say u may be avoiding the truth and it makes u sad. avoiding the truth is a major pastime here, so don't feel alone. yet, the truth is always changing for us and we cannot avoid change. we have help, we have invisible guardian angels, helpers, family we don't even remember as being family, we are ok during this shift, so however many years you have left here, I would advise you to live every day as if it were your last...we will support you here as best we can. love, alysia  see this little guy here? he speaks only for himself just for fun. see this other guy?    this is what happens at times.....now this next image is what I am doing with you in my spirit....