alysia
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well, you have the answers...for yourself.. your answers are not my answers, but sometimes we can agree and rejoice in that. one thing I noticed about life is when I'm down, tomorrow somehow looks different; nothing stays the same, not even a bad mood, or a state of depression. but I think u have to read books, and study and meditate, ask for help, do everything u can to help yourself out of the pits. I think I know where you're at as I think I've been there. all I can do is share what I did to get out of it...and what I did is not the only way, so if u want to know, I got mad. I said I was leaving this planet..lol..wheres my spaceship? I meant I was going to follow hubby into the great beyond. but before I did I offered a deal. I've always spoken aloud to the air. well, the air responded. might not work for you though, but you could try getting mad (don't punch anyone) state what u need to the air, then sit back and wait, I mean release the need to have instant satisfaction. guides will assist you in the right direction. after all, haven't you had enough of survival of the fittest idea?
that reminds me....I was raising ducks. love of my life. ducks...darn, I love ducks...built a pen and darn if a coon didn't get in there and tear one of my ducks up real bad, but didn't kill him, just left him bloody and featherless..he could have at least managed to put him out of his misery...but no....took my duck to the vet..here's the innane conversation: yes mam? it's my duck...could u put him to sleep please? yes, mam, you say it's your dog you need to euthanize? It's d-u-c-k, duck and could somebody hurry please, he's suffering. just a minute mam, I'll check who's available on staff, please have a seat. five minutes later a vet says to bring my dog in. it's a duck! is this the first time somebody brought in a duck? it's a pet duck, does anyone have feelings for a duck or am I crazy?
the world started to suck back then. I got to thinking about coons. it must have been starving to death and I couldn't get mad at it. the failure was mine. I was just learning how to keep safe my own. mother nature can be cruel or kind or indifferent. deal with it. I took the right action by taking the duck in. that's the best I could do. so u do the best you can do and keep shining your light when it's dark out there. like I said before you can't always get what you want but you can get what you need. let me know if you are inspired (hee, the objective) if not I may have to change my approach...I do care if that helps any. love, alysia
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