Quote:If there is a "God", or "Pervasive Intelligence" to
the universe, it means... I'M NEVER TRULY ALONE AND UNOBSERVED. I mean... at least I'd like to think when I'm on the john, I'm totally alone in the universe... but if there are "spirits", then I am being SEEN and HEARD in there... So much for privacy. Also... I'd like to think that certain thoughts I have are known to NO-ONE BUT ME... and will NEVER in all eternity be known to any but me. For example... I won't give you the exact details, but I am a Grade-A pervert sexually. I fantasize about some things which I have NEVER told anyone about, and never, ever will. (The most I'll say is that they ALL involve human females... no beastie love or gay stuff for THIS perv-o...) But if there is a "God", or an overarching intelligence... and by extension, an afterlife... then there IS someone who knows ALL these things about me. So, let mechanistic materialism be the TRUTH, I say. (Don't religious people find themselves haunted by this privacy problem, if they're not nice conforming All-American "missionary position only" chocolate-and-vanilla types, sexually speaking???) If there's an afterlife... then there is a Creator of some kind who is omniscient... and therefore, no privacy. Do any of you really want this to be true??? B-man
First off, you may wish to further explore your concept of a Creator-God, and your relationship with Him/Her. What exactly is your relationship to such, that is to say, how you *choose* to relate to such, is *determined* entirely by your free will, not by what someone else (eg. a pastor) says.
Secondly, it is not invasion of privacy of your sexual perversions that is the problem, it is your own fear of being judged by others (eg. extraphysicals or 'spirits', or even 'God') that is your problem. And it is not even being judged by others that is your problem, it is you judging yourself, that is the problem.
Thirdly, as to the sexual 'perversions' you perceive you have, first drop the negative emotional associations with the idea of 'perversion' as something 'bad'. It will only get in your way of understanding what this issue really is, and how you can benefit from it. So don't regard them as 'perversions' or something to be ashamed of. They're not. There's never anything to be ashamed of.
Next, understand that by the nature of the intense emotional energies associated with such sexual ideas ('perversions'), it is more than likely that there are intruders involved, that feed on, encourage, suggest more ('perverted' ideas), and (in effect) exacerbate the 'perversion' issue.
But exercising self-responsibility, you understand that intrusion by other (extraphysical) beings, can never be used as an 'excuse' for one issues (if it is, then you are only 'excusing' your own opportunities for learning, for evolution), because intrusion/attachment/possession can only occur when the seeds of the issue are already present (by your free will, your choice, your intentions, your thoughts and emotions) within yourself, and *these* attract the extraphysical intruders.
This is the 'higher purpose' for intrusion/attachment.
http://infinity.hispeed.com/Heart.Of.God/Hilarion/HilarionDiet.html#IntrusionBut most importantly, what can you do now to help yourself? The first step, is to realize that your problem is NOT that of privacy (that is merely a concept, one that is now giving you suffering).
One of your issues is your understanding or concept of God. You will have to explore this for yourself, including a redefinition of 'God' that is meaningful, helpful and (thus) correct for you.
But you have many other issues (issues = opportunities for learning; so the more the merrier, assuming you are *willing* to teach *yourself* and learn from *yourself*, on these issues), such as associated with self-judgement, 'privacy', sexual 'perversions', self-love, sexuality (what all of these mean to *yourself*), etc.
And so, it is not feasible to address each of these separately, and in fact, only *you* can correctly address these for yourself. But only if you can first begin to see these clearly. Clarification, is the key to the begin solving all your (and verily, *everyone's*) issues. If you can't correctly identify what's happening, you can't begin to work on them.
To that end, the perusal of Bryon Katie's work is recommended.
"Loving What Is"
http://infinity.hispeed.com/Heart.Of.God/main.htm#ByronKatieMy post on Byron Katie's "Inquiry Process - a Tool for Clarification" :
http://infinity.hispeed.com/cgi-bin/yabb2/YaBB.pl?num=1117041145Take care,
Kyo