Brendan,
Glad to see you being as colorful as usual... as couple things...
1) Emotions are part of being human, they are okay if used in balance with reason... and vice-versa. I understand where you are coming from.
2) Sex is a wonderful creation from God. It has many wonderful benefits; healing wonders and providing a sense of initimacy, completeness and just plain fun... but it also has a dark side too.
Because you live within time, anything get boring, familiar and lose it's edge. So, we move on to something (or someone) else. Being a Biology student, you know our bodies can only handle so many foreign bacteria, germs... and so forth before our immune system collapses. Multiple sex partners may sound fun... but that way lies danger.
I can attest that if you work at your sex life within the confines of marriage, you can beat anything swinging couples "think" they have over married couples. Within marriage you create your own heaven (with thoughtfulness) and hell (with selfishness)... in that cool union God created.
3) Heaven is so much more than eternal church... that's like saying the devil wears little red tights and carries a pitchfork. God's world is "Love" incarnated...or living love. You say you'll miss sex, right? People won't miss sex as much "itself" as for all the fun, excitement, love, security and stimulation sex provides. God's not dumb... he made us... he understands our needs for this old body. But upon death, we receive a "NEW" body that never dies, has heightened senses and can do more than these broken down physical bodies will ever do. You will be a young man... forever.
4) I'm 41 Brendan... I'm already were you fear to be...age wise. And you know what? It's not bad... take heart my friend. Do you ever watch the "Red Green" show on PBS? It's hilarious... Red Green's famous quote for getting old is... - "we're all in this together."
5) In Jim Carrey's movie "Bruce Almighty" many things you expressed here are mentioned in the movie. Have you seen it? Personally, I liked the way they handled the anger, frustration and Bruce's hatred towards God... and God's understanding response.
I grew up being taught the hateful, spiteful, mean God you believe in Brendan. I can relate to what you are say... every bit of it.
But I also discovered religion LIED about God's nature being cruel. I had to get kicked out of several churches to learn just how merciful, caring and kind God is... IT'S RELIGIOUS HUMANS WHO ARE CRUEL... not God. Put aside your anger and give him a chance to stand on his own two feet before you... don't judge him based on dumb Christians and Non-Christians who don't know which end is up half the time.
THEN WRESTLE WITH GOD FOR THE ANSWERS YOU SEEK... He likes to wrestle with his kids. He's a big boy... there's nothing you can say that will hurt him. And in spite of all your anger, Brendan, you possess more faith in God than most people I know. How can I tell? Easy, you're disappointed & angry with God. We only get disappointed and angry about things we care about. And the things we care about we invest in emotionally because we... believe in them.
Good Luck Searching...
Author JD Howes
www.jdhowes.com Quote:Don, as a human being, I'll cop to the fact that
I am more of a creature of emotion than of
logic.
But emotions are real things too, and are what
make life worthwhile.
Now... I don't believe that ANYTHING you, or anyone
else could say, would make me convert on grounds
of cold logic.
But suppose I DID read something that convinced
me Christianity is real?
The rest of my life would be a morass of depression
and I'd probably end up a Prozac android.
Why?
Because I'm over 30, man, and I can see 40 coming in the not-too-distant future. and then OLD AGE. My GOOD TIMES ARE JUST ABOUT OVER, in THIS life. Even now, I've got some gray at the temples, and am beginning to develop a trick knee. I had the misfortune of being born a couple hundred years before the aging process gets conquered by science. (Kind of disgusts me, that in view of humanity's 2-million year history on this planet, I missed it by a single "pubic hair"! I'm a simple man, with simple tastes... I like to get a bit pied sometimes, and I like young, beautiful women. I'm "aging out" of being able to have these pleasures..!)
If Christianity is true... then NO REINCARNATION, I "go somewhere and stay put."
I want to have a second (or third, or 5-thousandth!) go at YOUNG MANHOOD! The one I had was a disappointment, for a number of reasons.
Christianity? Then (AT BEST), all I have to look forward to is the AGING PROCESS, followed by GOOGOLPLEXES OF YEARS as a CELIBATE, GESTALT ENTITY... so CHANGED from what I CURRENTLY AM, there would be NO CONTINUITY of "me"... I'd be stuck FOREVER as an ANT in an... ANTPILE!!!
Yuck. Yuck! YUCCCCCK!!!
I'd rather mechanistic materialism be true than Christianity. Let Atheism be true instead; let me just die and rot. At least I won't be aware it's happening.
The ideas on this forum (especially reincarnation) are what led me to believe that maybe spirituality ain't all bad...
J.D. Howes called Christian "Heaven" "eternity's ultimate vacation spot" - hey, what's a trip to the Bahamas worth, if all you'd do there is hang out in a CHURCH? Give me the beach and some babes, and no "SEX-FREE ZONES" (or beer-free zones, or ANYTHING-FREE zones, PLEASE!!!)
That's what Christian Heaven is... a CHURCH MEETING/MONASTERY. There is nothing there to appeal to a normal human being (*especially a male.*) It's sole selling point is that you're not in "Hell" (A COWARD'S belief if there ever was one... tell me, is motivation through FEAR OF VIOLENCE "God's" way???
Then... F**K GOD (f**k "Yahweh", the BRUTAL GOD OF WAR!!!) That's ALL I have to say. He's no
better than some scumbag gangbanger or mob goon, in my estimation!!! I wouldn't worship "Blue Fly the Killer Pimp", so why shoud I worship a "Killer God"?
The Christian god is a... BULLY.
I believe with all my heart, that the only GOOD bully is a DEAD bully...
So I prefer to believe, "God is Dead" as far as Christianity is concerned.
Now, all this was just an INTELLECTUAL EXERCISE, Don. I've been studying religion all my life, and so far I've found NOTHING to make me suspect Christianity is true, logically speaking. And I'll indulge you by reading as much of your suggested literature as I can, although I won't make you any guarantees, as Christian writers tend to BORE me into the middle of next Wednesday, what with their endless "interpretations"(?) of foggy, ancient scriptures. But I would be willing to bet the potency of my peter that I WON'T be convinced by any of your stuff, logically speaking.
And then there's the EMOTIONAL resistance I have to it, which I have elaborated above...
Sorry if the above was a bit... shall we say, RAW, Don, but I believe in being HONEST to a fault, when speaking of spirituality. The above is what I TRULY FEEL. So don't tell me "Satan" inspired me to write this post. (He's the "Father of Lies", remember???)
Thanks for Reading,
B-man