Quote:area will need afterwards. (of course consciously I'm thinking I must have been out of my mind when I signed up for this...but I must be capable of doing it if my soul agreed to it.)
I wanted to ask that part of myself that did volunteer for this what on Earth it was thinking when I read this, and got a response.
Ego: What the hell were you thinking? We're in the middle of the end of the world!
Core: Relax. Everything's going to be fine.
Ego: That sounds like a fatalistic, excessively optimistic simplification to me. Didn't you hear about the tsunami last Christmas? And what about Iraq?
Core: James, you're not being realistic. Iraq is a very, very long way away from you for one thing. And for another, we're not living near a coastal area...or not immediately near one, anywayz.
Ego: I worry about how deeply the Australian government is in bed with the US govt. I worry that some of the bad things that are happening in America right now are going to start happening here, because of that.
Core: I know you do, and it's futile and completely irrelevant. We're law abiding, and Howard (the Australian Prime Minister) isn't anywhere near as bad as you think. You should listen to Sheena (my girlfriend) when she tells you that the people currently in office are meant to be there, and know what they're doing. She's right.
Ego: I hope you're right. I still have no idea why I would have wanted to be born during the frigging Apocalypse! Of course, I don't really believe I chose this...it seems like just an uncontrolled roll of the dice to me.
Core: I know you don't believe it. You need to realise that you're very deeply anchored in corporeal reality right now; there are some things you've lost sight of. Because you're getting a little older now, you're starting to take the somewhat usual slide into atheism...you're getting grounded, the veil is settling down more heavily, and you don't remember it as well as you used to when we do go out of body. The truth is though that we're NOT in an atheistic universe, and you need to remember that if for no other reason than for the sake of your sanity. The reason why you've never been afraid of nuclear disaster is because of your belief that God wouldn't let it happen...you've got to hold onto that kind of faith right now, because you're about to start needing it more than you ever have before. The last 10-20 years have been buildup, but right now we're sitting right on the point that Gandalf referred to as "the deep breath before the plunge." For a little while it's going to look as though the world has gone to the bottom of a very deep chasm, but you have to realise that it's only going to look like that from a purely temporal perspective. That's not how things really will be, or if it is, it's only how they'll be for the length of time it takes for you to blink. In hindsight you'll realise that. Change your perspective. You're down in the middle of it right now, and when you're in that situation it's a lot harder to keep track of where you really are than when you're up above it and can see all of it going on from a distance. More than anything else, you need to remember that there's a lot more going on than what you can see.
The other thing is, part of the reason why we decided to be born during this period is because we need a lot of stimulation and adventure...I still remember that, even if you don't. You might claim to want to live peacefully, but trust me when I say that if we were, you'd be bored out of your skull and miserable. You're also such a pessimist that you'd be waiting for something to happen even if it wasn't going to! Your negativity is in itself the biggest threat to you right now...your fear. You've got to let go of that if we're going to get through this and remain alive physically...and believe me, you want to. This is an unprecedented opportunity for us...for everyone who is here right now...you want to be physically alive for the end of it.
Ego: Isn't caring about whether or not we're physically alive supposed to be my department? I thought you were above caring about such things.
Core: I am, but my department is our learning and development, and we're never going to get another opportunity to develop like the one we've got right now...which means that in a way, it's almost as important to me that we remain incarnate right now as it is to you.
Ego: Wow. I'm tripping out about that.
Core: You ain't seen nothing yet. We're going to be around to see some amazing things, James...Do you have any idea how many other generations in human history have hoped that they'd be alive for this? It's going to be great. Let go of the fear, relax, and enjoy it. You'll appreciate it a lot more afterwards if you do. Keep doing retrieval related stuff too, if you've got the nerve for it...it'll help you remember that we're not just going to be worm food at the end of all this, which is something you're thinking too much lately. The only danger we face comes from how we think. Nothing else. Hold onto that.
Ego: I'll have to try.