Debbie Meehan
Ex Member
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Herb,
I'm donning my "warrior" costume for a while, as I do believe you are helping me to finally receive some clarity here. I don't know if it's your Nagual powers you're sending out, or what, but thank you!
I was a bit dumbfounded last night, after all that occurred with Cheryl's post/thread. As I explained in my post I deleted, Cheryl and I met on this board in 2000, and have become good friends. I was attempting to write her last night, and forewarn her, sensing she'd most likely read up on things this a.m., and be rather surprised and confused, but I wasn't sure in my own mind just exactly what was going on, so I closed out my e-mail and thought I'd wait until today. It appears by her post, that she was surprised and confused, but I have written her now, to fill in the blanks.
When I wrote my post last night, I wrote with careful consideration. I was calm, peaceful, and did not feel the least bit defensive. I checked and rechecked, again and again, and again. Actually, after submitting it, I felt quite good about it, and liberated in a way. After I read Jean's suggestion to Roger and I, confusion set in, and I reacted so quickly, deleting my post without really giving myself time to think. I don't like conflict or controversy, and do my best to avoid it, and I sure don't want to be rude or unkind, and I apologize if ever that's been the case. I am much more comfortable staying behind the scenes and taking notes on this board. I can't speak for anyone else in this scenario, but I do feel I got caught up in how someone else perceived (that's something new and different, huh? lol). Jean, I respect what you shared, and where you were coming from, I truly do. Implementing the teachings in ACIM has been my main objective for many many years. I do agree with Herb though, for myself, as it crossed my mind after what occurred, that fear set in, and it seems indeed a matter of making real, the concept of "good and evil," by my so quickly removing my post, and actually, I shared that very thing when I wrote Cheryl, trying to explain things in my frustration and confusion.
Herb, I was intending to write and say I didn't think it was fair for you to take the "rap," as my writing or removing my post had nothing to do with you whatsoever. I know I'm 100% responsible for me. I wrote from my heart, being true to what I felt, but I second guessed myself. I just needed time to process and understand my part in this, and again, your posts helped me. I like this. Am I doing good as a warrior? lol
Well, thanks to everyone! I've gained a lot from visiting here for the last five years. I have written countless imaginary posts to all of you in my mind. I have rejoiced with you all, cried, laughed until I've cried, empathized, and experienced the agony and ecstacy, even though I don't come out to post too often. Thanks again to you, Herb, as I'm receiving some insight from you.
Love and Peace to All, Debbie
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