Hello All;
Sonia  requested the 18th September as a focus SHWP.

More information will follow.

PUL to All
R.

I'm there.

this is whats in progress for me regarding Sonia, but I have the calendar marked for the 18th.

I briefly touched in as Sonia has been talking to me a bit. this is what I got. Sonia changed into a man, then back to a woman. I took this to mean Sonia has both polarities within the soul making.

In the male form is the active polarity responsible for what Sonia goes thru now. I called forth the aspect of male to talk with me, regarding being chased in the astral.
The aspect, I'll call him "D" for now was in tears. the load was tremendous of guilt. I told D we were going to take care of it shortly.
I asked D to write down everything it thinks it has done, but try not to get carried away, just write down the major things that are causing Sonia to feel separated, alone and depressed.

When the list was complete I asked D to call me. I would then retrieve the list and take it to my counselors table in the astral. these are my disc members who advice me.
They would be able to advice me what on the list is real and what is nothing to worry about.
I have a suspicion right now most of the list is "made up."
Meaning it's a false interpretation from Sonia's mind, that got shoved into the unconscious. like a false self image.
this would cause fear to be in Sonia, for guilt feelings are mainly a fear of receiving punishment.

This fear makes it seem like one is being chased in the astral.
in that case, you must face every fear. or at the least be willing to face everywhere and ask Spirit to aide you.

Be aware, these entities are insubstantial and cannot harm you Sonia. Fear itself is just fear, it's yourself who feeds your fear forms. they tend to start dissolving when you are willing to unravel them to see what the cause is.

which is feeling guilty and projecting guilt unto your own "bad" self.
You will soon begin to think of everything thats good about you.

because I know where to get the record. everybody reading this, think of how we can aide Sonia please. the more join in, we can get it done.

thanks! I'll be back after the 18th or so. alysia  :-*

QUOTE from Sonia from the Retrieval's forum:
"He moves his hands before me, before my eyes, and their comes a black smoke out of them (myabe that smoke came out of his hands, maybe the smoke came of my eyes. I didn't see -- strange!!!)."

That gesture the pilot made, really bothers me. What was he doing? I wonder actually if he didn't try to tell me something.

And that smoke, did it come from me or from him?

I don't know, but ever since I saw that (about one week ago) I really feel sick(er than usual). That is why this is bothering me.

I posted about it in the "Spiritual healing with PUL"-forum, because it puzzles me and worries me at the same time.

Sonia
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I read in Bruce's book (BOOK 1) that a person, with black spots and smokes in her energy, was healed by another person called Rebecca.

Since I am not familiar with these things, I am not sure what I should write here.

I can give you a list of pains of problems I have, which are both physical and non-physical:
- I constantly see little black dots or little travelling light spots
- I don't see the central lettre of a text
- I hear vibrations once in a while, in my ears. I used to have hearing problems, but then these problems vanished without any reason and I sense sometimes they come back.
- My nose is closed inside. I had surgery to breath through it, but it keeps closing.
- I keep coughing without any reason.
- I feel pain in my longs, though they have nothing. Actually that pain increased to a level where I have the feeling my longs are burning out from the inside. That is the worse pain I feel.
- I am very pale and blue under my eyes.
- The skin gets away from my teeth (=gums).
- I have extremely thin bones.
- I feel tired most of the time.
- All of a sudden I have various pains: at the right side of my chest, at my right leg.
- I fall through my legs when I run.
- I can't stop biting my nails. I am constantly nervous even when I got no apparent reason.
- All of a sudden I start shaking, because of lacks of sugar, etc. in my blood.
- I loose my concentration unwillingly when anybody talks to me. Like if I am gone.
- I really feel like throwing up my food.
- Suddenly, a muscle activates and starts moving under my skin, without me ordering it.
- I feel a weight on my neck.
- I feel like my head is in a fog.

There are repetitive dreams I am having. Maybe this can be a clue to where the problem is:
- I dream of vampires, burglars, being chased, being haunted, being chased by somebody who really wants me to die
- I keep searching something in my dreams. I am constantly on the road, in a bus, in a subway, in a hotel...on my way, without a real goal, apparently.

Other things: Suddenly I feel sad or depressed, even when there is no reason. I can't solve what I can't identify.

There must be a problem somewhere and somehow, I feel it just got worse, because I feel worse physically, than ever before.

What should I do?

Sonia

Sounds like you'd need a healing boost. I guess the moderators can organize a date where we'll send you some healing thoughts and energies.

Meanwhile, have you ever given the complete above list
1. To a medicinal doctor
2. To a psychologist and/or psychiatrist?
Maybe they'll find nothing, or suggest a treatment that you don't agree with, but maybe they have some good advice, you never know.

What do you personally think? Is it something on soul/mind level, or more something bodily? Or something in between, like your family background and/or people in your surrounding? When did it start?

Don't try to give us a self-examination here, just think about it for yourself if you haven't done so already, but maybe you find something which could be helpful for anyone who tries to help you.

Spooky

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There must be a problem somewhere and somehow, I feel it just got worse, because I feel worse physically, than ever before.

What should I do?
Sonia[/quote

Sonia have you give anymore thoughts about this:
http://afterlife-knowledge.com/cgi-bin/yabb/YaBB.cgi?num=1217180906/15

Reading your post made me look for this one; wonder why?
Call it a hunch.. :D
Love yourself keep coming back into my mind.
If you wish 18th is free for focus healing?? Let us know.
Sending light and love your way.
R.

Romain,

"If you wish 18th is free for focus healing??" --> What is that?

I am very much interested in any help I can get, because I sense part of me remains in denial of the problem and I can't seem to wake up.

I gotta get rid of this "victim" feeling I've got and getting myself more into spiritual trouble.

I seek a way to pull this off.

Thanks to you all,

Sonia

Sonia send you a PM alsol
To answer some of the questions here for the others who want to knwo.

Do I need to do something? ...Be OPEN on the specific day/week for any thoughts/feeling/sensations/uplifting etc.

What is expected from me?....
To report any changes in thoughts/feeling/behaviors’/ or any sensations that you felt... 8-)
.if you wish to post them it up to you, it will be greatly appreciated and will let us know how it's working!
*** And we need your permission to do it***

Just let me know and I’ll schedule the posting for a specific Thursday.
Every Thursday is SHWP day but we can send Healing anyday if we wish too. But Focus SHWP is Thurday.

As a focus Day of SHWP it means that all members/ healers on this board will focus on you on than day by sending Healing PUL to you...you'll be the princess that day...all for you and the good of ALL...
Anymore question just let me know.
PUL
Romain

Quote Sonia:
"I gotta get rid of this "victim" feeling I've got and getting myself more into spiritual trouble."

Yes. I think it may be beneficial if you had something you could joyously focus on. A hobby, a profession. Something you like, and something you think you are good in. This is something we need to define us as a person, and as a presence in the physical. A ground-base we can always return to when things (relationships) get strange.

Spooky

I would really like to thank you all for what you are doing for me.

I really seek to know the meaning of this all, and see what I can do to improve whatever situation I encounter.

Spooky,
As far as I can remember, I always focused much on my own reasoning-patterns and trying to undo the knots of it, whatever they were. The older I grow, the more I seem to do that. Maybe I am searching for something in there. I don't know if it brings me joy, i've been doing this for so long, that I think sometimes I get bored, but I keep doing it, because I sense it is important.
Sonia

Hi Sonia,
I, too, think about why I did something, and if it was correct, and reflect about my own thoughts. But as well I often notice that my self-reflections start to become circles, or go farther and farther, and at some point of time I realize that there will no new insights come from continueing that thought-thread. So, I guess it's like so many things in life, a healthy balance is the main thing. Self reflection yes, but only as much as is useful.

Spooky

Hi Everybody,

Romain asked me to mention things I wanted you to focus on.

To summarize:
I want to find clarity about what the problem(s) is.
I want to be able to find solutions to that problem(s).
I want to find the strength and have the insight to apply whatever solution is necessary in my life.

Part of me remains in hate and sadness no matter what I do. I cannot find the root of the feeling, but it is taking me down and than I am really tired, constantly.

Also, because of that, when I find a solution, I don't find the sufficient strength to apply it and then I feel really bad and dislike myself.

I hope these explanations suffice, otherwise I come and check if you wish clarifications.

Many thanks,

Sonia

Hi Sonia,

Help, please, some of us need a bit more to focus on if that is not your face avatar.
If not, could you give us a nearby city? maybe you did once but I forgot it.

Also healers, I found recently that having the city and the avatar name works quickly when you review in your mind that each post by that name leads back to the person. Not that we send it through the computer and internet, but when you get near their city, it helps to sort things out.

Bets

betson wrote on Sep 14^th, 2008 at 10:25am:

I found recently that having the city and the avatar name

Are you sure this is absolutely necessary?

I felt kind of safer being anonymous, do you understand.

Sonia

Hi all, hi Sonia. I have a while back put your name for peace of mind under a crystal I use. just thought I'd mention that so you will know we are all together working on your well being.

I mentally note that in four days it will be Your Day! the 18th.
You should structure that day to not be quite as active mentally and physically as you usually are. this way you may be able to report to us any healing effects. You might feel inexplicable love, it's hard to say what you might experience, so we need your input.

so be receptive and accepting of what appears for you, as well, I note with another forum member, their healing extended over a week or so, so don't put time limits on this process.

dearlite Sonia, I know I asked for a list but I need to clarify, it's not a list of physical complaints as such that I wanted. I too have some of your complaints. when I get physically tired, I simply take a nap. I don't think you allow yourself to nap, so I thought I'd mention it, we are not physically immortal and we might have a wonderful spiritual path we are on, or belief system, but we are still going to need rest when appropriate, especially as we add years to ourselves.

its part of that nurturing thing I mentioned earlier.

During these next 4 days I know where my subconscious thoughts will be. they will be on you. At night, I believe we all go out of body and I have met many forum members, catching glimpses and snatches of conversation with them, about the well being of this entire board and also it's about the shift in consciousness on our entire planet, it's like a wave of energy is on all of us now, even some of our physical pains are associated with this shifting process.
so during the next four days there will be a build up of energy for you, to be set in place for the 18th.
if you cannot handle the entire energy package, so to speak, it will be doled out to you as u are able to receive it without any discomfort and that's why I said it can extend during a week or two, because you will be doing the accepting part through the mental framework; ie: read Spooky's meditation example in the link Romain told you to go.

U asked me "why did D do it?" (D is Sonia's masculine side, as I reference it.

That's for you to figure out, but I think D is reaching for the truth, and wanting to break free of this 3rd generation stuff, whereby a pattern gets repeated.

For now, you might remember the song somebody wrote once, called "what I did for love."  some lyrics go, wont regret, wont forget, what I did for love.

and read your own message under the picture "where there is love, there is hope."

then tie these thoughts into your newest breakthrough, where you said you have to get away from ideas that you are a victim.

since you are a very mentally active person, as I see it, you will work mentally until your heart chakra gets more active and you begin to think with your heart intelligence. as you think about your new breakthrough that you cannot be a victim, find out why higher self was active always in your life, and find ways to consider that you are not a victim, because you wanted to be here now in this time of the shift in consciousness where we find our oneness.

find out why you thought that way, that you were victimized, see if you learned anything from relationships of value. I think you will be pleasantly surprised to learn that there was a higher power walking you through, each step of the way.
sort of like that poetry, of the foot steps in the sand, where you couldn't see God, and that was when he picked u up in his/her arms and carried you through while you slept from exhaustion of your emotional journey.

Your a fighter Sonia. Now you are shifting into your softer side, letting go and letting god do the work.

see ya soon! I feel really good about you. hugs!

side note: the list I wanted would be a mental list of something you buried, like a secret guilt list.
u only forwarded a list of symptoms on the body which developed from the unconscious load of guilt thoughts.

just make them conscious, and hand them over to your higher self to deal with. not here especially, but list them in your head, write them on paper. watch what happens when you write something down like that. you're healing the subconscious to the conscious.
everybody has to do this, but you're speeding it up. :o

Alysia,

You wrote:
"since you are a very mentally active person, as I see it, you will work mentally until your heart chakra gets more active and you begin to think with your heart intelligence."

I think you got that right. I work everything mentally, because I am not in touch with my feelings.

Thanks Alysia. Good work.

Sonia

History's MysterY:
Re: SHWP for Thursday September 18th (Sonia Faith)
betson wrote on Sep 14th, 2008, 8:25am:
I found recently that having the city and the avatar name....

Sonia wrote:
Are you sure this is absolutely necessary?

I felt kind of safer being anonymous, do you understand.

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I'm not sure what we have to aim at.....
------Your avatar face?  Is it a model?
------Your avatar name? Have you had it long enough it has built up some energy as you, maybe on another site as well?

What are you safe or unsafe from?  ::)
You could PM just those who've said they're participating whom you trust and tell them.

Bets  :-?

Enjoy your day Sonia (Barbara of Brussels).. :)

Be open to the SHWP energies dedicated/send to you today.

PUL; R.

Hi Sonia,

I participated in the healing this morning for you.  I used the technique of meditating with a clear quartz crystal because of properties of healing and light.  I focused on clarity, clearing, cleansing, clear thinking, and clear decision making.  This was for the purpose of creating a clear path mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually.  

Like Bets was saying, it's a little easier for me to focus on a face when I try to connect with someone, either that or an emotional attachment.  Since I have neither of those with you, I used the crystal and the "clear channel" representation as a way to send to your higher self those properties that you can benefit from.  When I meditate I like to remind myself that there is abundance out there, for anything we want or need.  But we need to realize it and be open to receiving it.  So that's what I focused on for you.  If you allow yourself to open up to those things, they will make their way to you because they are already there for you to have.

For your long list of ailments I personally would recommend you see your doctor for what he can do for you, and for anything else on the list you could practice breathing and relaxation exercises, along with meditation and visualization for opening yourself up to your own healing.  I think most often the physical ailments we deal with are a result of blockages in our energy.  

Love,

Vicky

HI everyone,

I already noticed some changes. I'll report them to you a.s.a.p.

Thank you all.  :)

Sonia

Hello Sonia:

I just read this post. I sent you some healing energy.  

How long have the physical symptoms you experience been going on? Perhaps you're going through a cleansing process.  Psychological and emotional issues get locked up within our bodies and cause various physical problems. When they get cleared they can cause more problems than usual, both physically and psychologically. The process can seem rough for a while, but eventually things work themselves out.

Regarding the dreams of being chased etc, do you have any fears that relate? Perhaps the dreams serve a cleansing purpose. I've had a number of out of body experiences where I dealt with unfriendly beings. Doing so helped me get over my fear of such beings, because they never got the best of me. These experiences were created by my higher self/guidance in order to let me know that I don't need to worry about unfriendly beings. Perhaps the same point is being made to you in your dreams. If you choose the light, nothing can stop you from doing so. Perhaps you should stand up to whatever chases you in your dreams. Send love to whatever projection that occurs.

Have you tried making a list of the issues that have troubled you during your life? If you do so and get clear on these issues as best as you can, it can really help. There is no hurt, anger or fear you need to hold onto. Your spiritual reality always provides a resolution.

recoverer wrote on Sep 19^th, 2008 at 11:14am:

I just read this post. I sent you some healing energy.

Many thanks to you and all the others who are doing the same.


recoverer wrote on Sep 19^th, 2008 at 11:14am:

How long have the physical symptoms you experience been going on?

I have had them for my entire life, but you really have to know me, otherwise you see nothing (if you don't pay attention).

Currently, I am running a bloodtest though. I haven't had the result yet, but I encountered a new and really good doctor this time, who digs deeper into issues than the other doctors. Curious to hear what's he's gonna say.


recoverer wrote on Sep 19^th, 2008 at 11:14am:

Perhaps you're going through a cleansing process.  Psychological and emotional issues get locked up within our bodies and cause various physical problems. When they get cleared they can cause more problems than usual, both physically and psychologically. The process can seem rough for a while, but eventually things work themselves out.

Yes, it's possible. When I feel mentally bad, I feel sick. When I have certain thoughts, influencing my state of mind, I get pains in specific areas, being each time the same.

eg. When I am in doubt because of somebody else's opinion, I feel like I get strangulated at the throat. That is why I think I was murdered in a past life by strangulation.

eg. When I doubt about other issues, I feel pain in the leg or something. It's is really bizarre.


recoverer wrote on Sep 19^th, 2008 at 11:14am:

Regarding the dreams of being chased etc, do you have any fears that relate? Perhaps the dreams serve a cleansing purpose. I've had a number of out of body experiences where I dealt with unfriendly beings. Doing so helped me get over my fear of such beings, because they never got the best of me. These experiences were created by my higher self/guidance in order to let me know that I don't need to worry about unfriendly beings. Perhaps the same point is being made to you in your dreams. If you choose the light, nothing can stop you from doing so. Perhaps you should stand up to whatever chases you in your dreams. Send love to whatever projection that occurs.

I tried many times to face my opponent, but in my dreams I am in a more unconscious state, so it is difficult to control your reaction. I tend to face more difficulties now, but I am still learning.


recoverer wrote on Sep 19^th, 2008 at 11:14am:

Have you tried making a list of the issues that have troubled you during your life? If you do so and get clear on these issues as best as you can, it can really help. There is no hurt, anger or fear you need to hold onto. Your spiritual reality always provides a resolution.

That's an excellent idea. I didn't think of it, but I think I should do so. Mentally, I made some kind of list, because I seem to always bump into the same problems, so I started seeing a pattern. Also out of boredom. It's like running around the same block for eternity.

Thank you for your advice and care, recoverer.

I appreciate your input.

Sonia

You're welcome Sonia:

Sonia wrote: "Yes, it's possible. When I feel mentally bad, I feel sick. When I have certain thoughts, influencing my state of mind, I get pains in specific areas, being each time the same.

eg. When I am in doubt because of somebody else's opinion, I feel like I get strangulated at the throat. That is why I think I was murdered in a past life by strangulation.

eg. When I doubt about other issues, I feel pain in the leg or something. It's is really bizarre."

Recoverer responds: The above is significant. I've found that when I have pain in a particular part of my body, it is caused by an energetic block that is caused by a psychological issue. I've found that thinking about an issue can cause the energy level and pain in an effected area to become more active. I believe what happens is that when we think of the responsible issue the responsible thought pattern comes to life and causes a problem. Thoughts are energy. I've been able to clear many of these blocks. Spirit guidance has helped me do so. There have been times when we worked together on clearing a block. You can ask your spirit guidance to help you clear a block.

One night I lay in bed and had upper back between my shoulder blades. I asked my spirit guidance to turn up the energy so the block could be cleared. Immediately after asking this the energy level and pain increased significantly. It throbbed. I wondered how I would fall asleep, but did so with no problem. When I woke up in the moring the block and pain were gone.





Sonia wrote: "I tried many times to face my opponent, but in my dreams I am in a more unconscious state, so it is difficult to control your reaction. I tend to face more difficulties now, but I am still learning."

Recoverer responds: "I know what you mean. I've found that lucid dreams and OBEs do allow you to be conscious. Perhaps you should set the goal to have a lucid dream. To do so, imagine yourself dealing with whatever it is you need to deal with ahead of time. Such a practice might carry over. Even now, it is possible that your dreams are an indication that you don't have to worry. Think of it this way:

1. If an unfriendly being is responsible, in the end it never got the best of you.
2. If your higher self/guidance created the experience, which is much more likely than number 1, your guidance is telling you in an experiential way that you don't have to worry.
3. Nothing more than your subconsious mind is playing out whatever concerns you might have.

So, I was going to report you the changes I noticed so far:



So, first of all, I want to thank you all for your advice. I was given advice about the state of mind to be in, before one does the healing and I want to encourage you to do so with others, because it is really helpful.  ;)

Now I am going to explain you in which state of mind I was before the healing: I was calm, had a calm day, I believed in it, yet I did not build up expectations, because I want to be honest with myself and you about the reality of the effect. I said to myself, that I was going to keep an eye on myself, my feelings and my perception in general, and that's all.

Now comes the effect:
It started a day before the 18th: I felt more confident, clearer, but it puzzles me that I felt something different a day earlier. Maybe you'ld like to know this.

On the 18th:
At first, I did not feel any difference...
then gradually I felt calmer, but I did not notice it right away. I am always really tense at the shoulders and the neck. I mean my muscles are really contracted, even when at my calmest stage. It gradually cracked, especially in the back of the neck, under the skull. (As I now sit before the computer, I am still a little tense in my shoulders)
Then I felt like -- I am not sure how to explain this -- bubbles popping in my head (about 2cm diameter, like soap bubbles). It is like, there were bubbles blocking the clarity of my view, and they went "POP" and then it was gone. I had this 1 to 3 times.
Then, much later (maybe about 3 hours later), I felt like a vibration in my head, but that was short, maybe 5 seconds.

But after that, it really became more interesting.

I talked about the bubbles earlier. After that, for about 1 hour or 2, it was like little bubbles of foam "Popped/exploded". I would compare it with small foamy soap bubbles, popping one at the time. I really felt things got clearer, but I also sense there are some left.

At some point, my head felt lighter for a few seconds, but I cannot recall at what moment.

Gradually, it is like I started thinking differently. I felt I loved myself more (for no apparent reason) and because of that, I felt more confident. I also thought a little quicker. Lacking clarity, often makes me slower to understand, you see. (Actually, I see that now, better).

Since I noticed it, I decided I'ld test my state of mind, by thinking of things that would usually cause me not to love myself very much. Actually, I decided I didn't care how much I failed. I thought I'ld love myself, no matter what. I'd come to realize, that I love myself on condition that I am PUL. So, I am simply gonna give myself a break.

This has nothing to do, with what I told you previously, but I felt so happy. I said to myself that I felt "superdoopey" happy. It's kinda funny.  :D  ;D Plus, I had the feeling nothing really mattered, at all.

Then I thought I'd never thought I'd feel like that during this lifetime.

And now (the 19th), as I am writing, I feel all warm and I finally want to get some peace.

I had a hard time, coming down to write this all, because I really feel more like enjoying it, instead of talking about it, but I thought that was kinda selfish, so I came to my computer anyway.

In fact, after I have washed my dishes, I intend to go sleeping without watching any TV. Till now, I was always on a quest searching for something, but my inner voice now tells me, that we've come to find what we were searching, so we can quit "that" search.

I wish I could feel like this forever. I wish it would never stop.

I think I cannot thank you, because it is beyond my words.

Sonia

Sonia:

This is great to hear. Good job by you and the people who sent you energy. Regarding the bubble popping thing, I've heard it numerous times in various parts of my body.  Bruce Moen wrote about a popcorn popping sound when it comes to spirits who release unwanted energy.

Sonia thank you for sharing and letting us help.

So these bubbles; don't know it you got to see the link i posted to you on another post or it got delete; regarding Bruce technique he used to remove unwanted thoughts/believe pattern did work as far as i'm concern.

Great news; and keep it up
PUL
Romain

Thanks for telling us Sonia.  :)

Spooky

Hi Sonia. I am just now reporting on what came through for me regarding your problems. The first couple of times I went "in" to look at you there seemed to be a lot of muddle going on, and my own feelings responded with confused ideas and possibilites, but something seemed to be hovering right "on the tip of my tongue" so to speak, but I could not quite access it.

Having gotten past that after my third entry into the healing place, this message came through for me very quickly and clearly this morning, Saturday.

There seems to be a very acute response in your body and brain to an environmental exposure of some kind. For example, people who have new carpeting installed can suffer these kinds of reactions, because of the various toxic gases released  by new carpeting.

Or the use of brand new "foamies" which release formaldehyde and other toxic gases for up to two years after purchase (and we sleep right on them, go figure!).

I am not saying it is carpeting or foamies or any one thing Sonia, in your case, but I am trying to give you examples of the myriad of possibilites in our chemical-mad world.

You are very sensitive and remind me of a case I read about a few years ago where one poor lady was sensitive to so many thngs in her environment that, to stay alive, she had to avoid a great part of life entirely.

You don't seem to be like that, but there is SOMETHING and maybe more than one single thing, that your body and brain are throwing up their hands and saying "OK, UNCLE, I give up."

This is what I have received as information. Thank you for allowing me to participate, I hope this helps at least in some small way. Vee

The weather is really beautiful in my country now. It is sunny, the trees are all flowery.

Somehow, I feel this improves the situation as well. It gives a magical feeling to the overall impression.

I sense I am more aware of things. Also, I have a sense of "Knowing" and that scares me actually, because usually I feel ignorant about almost anything.

Suddenly, I know the soul is a vibration.
Suddenly, I know that the soul's natural way is love and abundance and that everything blocking that causes negativity and hurt.
SUddenly, I know that I should find a method to think that way. Maybe I should ask the Universe? (What do you think)

Also, I feel more open to feelings. eg. I never cry when something bad happens, because that makes me feel weak, but I did cry today about everything that ever went wrong.

I still feel in my own bubble somehow, like a part of me is still out of reach.

At the same time, I feel things have never been this perfect and it makes me wonder if I am still alive. Is this reality? Did I die without knowing it and is the situation changing because my awareness changed...

I felt bubbles going "pop" inside my chest as well.

It is definitely going better.

I believe it matters to know what you do makes a difference.

Thank you.

Sonia

Vee wrote on Sep 20^th, 2008 at 1:27pm:

Hi Sonia. I am just now reporting on what came through for me regarding your problems. The first couple of times I went "in" to look at you there seemed to be a lot of muddle going on, and my own feelings responded with confused ideas and possibilites, but something seemed to be hovering right "on the tip of my tongue" so to speak, but I could not quite access it. Having gotten past that after my third entry into the healing place, this message came through for me very quickly and clearly this morning, Saturday. There seems to be a very acute response in your body and brain to an environmental exposure of some kind. For example, people who have new carpeting installed can suffer these kinds of reactions, because of the various toxic gases released  by new carpeting. Or the use of brand new "foamies" which release formaldehyde and other toxic gases for up to two years after purchase (and we sleep right on them, go figure!). I am not saying it is carpeting or foamies or any one thing Sonia, in your case, but I am trying to give you examples of the myriad of possibilites in our chemical-mad world. You are very sensitive and remind me of a case I read about a few years ago where one poor lady was sensitive to so many thngs in her environment that, to stay alive, she had to avoid a great part of life entirely. You don't seem to be like that, but there is SOMETHING and maybe more than one single thing, that your body and brain are throwing up their hands and saying "OK, UNCLE, I give up." This is what I have received as information. Thank you for allowing me to participate, I hope this helps at least in some small way. Vee

Vee,

Regarding your post, I am indeed very sensitive to exterior conditions. I am fastly sick when there is a flu around. I sneeze when there is too much dust. Also, I don't like when there is too much "blinding" sun. In that way, you saw right.

But I haven't got any specific allergy. I am just sensitive to everything.

Also, I asked for clarity, because I have had many confusing ideas and I kept throwing thoughts at it in a desperate attempts to untie the nods.

You wrote: "...something seemed to be hovering right "on the tip of my tongue" so to speak, but I could not quite access it".
I have this feeling very often, that is why I feel so frustrated at times.

You also wrote: "You don't seem to be like that, but there is SOMETHING and maybe more than one single thing, that your body and brain are throwing up their hands and saying "OK, UNCLE, I give up."

I give up is not really my kind of sentence. I would rather say:"I really don't know what to do know, so I'll keep searching until I find a solution, and because of that, I do nothing right now to solve anything, because I don't know what to do." That is more my style. It looks like I give up, but in fact I am just seeking.

Thank you for your comments.
I always appreciate other people's inside of the situation.

Sonia

I wanted to dedicate one post to say:

THANK YOU to you all, who have participated to this.

In alphabetical order:
Betson
LaffingRain
Recoverer
Romain
Spooky
Vee
Vicky
(Let's hope I forgot nobody, here)

Special thanks to Romain, for being the moderator of this forum.

Much love,

Sonia

Many thanks for your posts here, Sonia  :)

You are even thanking /helping others beyond those
who have written to you of their intent to help.  :D

Some sent you PUL without posting their intent;
some are wondering what receiving PUL is like
and now have your wonderful description to guide them;
some may not have realized that their positive energy was helping, but because they are connected to the goals of this site, they were also involved to a degree.

I'm very happy for you!   :)

Bets

Hi,

I wanted to mention that on the first night of the 18th, I saw somebody looking at me through a mirror.

It was a lady with long brown hair and glasses, with thick black borders. She was wearing a white dress, with a blue flower print. Maybe this is a nonphysical helper. I don't know. She was looking so young and astonished that I saw her. She looked at me in a mirror, as if she was trying to be discrete.

It reminds me of a name: Mairlin Maitreya or something. I saw this name years ago on this board, but don't see it now anymore.

In general, my dreams improved. Meaning I see better stuff eg. me plucking ripe raspberries, or being on a trip in Italy. Last night, I visioned 3 huge silver antenna's shaped like open flowers, sending waves. I was with somebody in a car, who said she worked in a center near these huge silver antenna's and that she bought her sandwiches nearby.

There was also that man in a garden, who was happy because he was covered with large golden coins. Although it was a pretty picture to see him that way, I liked it less, because I sensed he would have made war to have these coins. He did not look like he had the best intentions, but he fortunately did not see me, because he was too obsessed with hiding this "treasure" of his.

Sonia

Hi,

Right now, I heard a strong vibration in my ear, connected to feeling in chest. Then it stabilized.

I feel more calm.

Sonia

Hi Sonia,

The unusual noises are a good sign that your spiritual body/bodies are realligning.  That's typical or usual of one's spiritual being being awakened, so don't be alarmed.  It's sort of fun when you realize what it is.  :)

Marilyn does have long hair, and spiritually she can appear in a more vital form than her current age would suggest.  (I guess I can say that since I'm also her age ;) )  I hope she'll come by and respond to your perception.

You really seem to be opening to spirit !  That's great!

Bets

betson wrote on Sep 22^nd, 2008 at 9:18am:

Hi The unusual noises are a good sign that your spiritual body/bodies are realligning.  That's typical or usual of one's spiritual being being awakened, so don't be alarmed.  It's sort of fun when you realize what it is.  :) ... You really seem to be opening to spirit !  That's great! Bets

I feel much better, yet a part of me is still sad I sense.

I sense it in another way and now that I feel progress, I wish I could just go on progressing at the rate I have been since the 18th. In a way, I've grown impatient towards my own progress. That is why I am so focused on it.

Actually, I have wished this to happen for a long time. I was waiting for it to happen. I felt so stuck because of that lack of clarity, do you understand?

I just really want to move on, completely.

I am afraid, that if I feel now, that part of me does not follow that progress I am making, I am going to search a way out again.

I am just so happy this forum exists.

Sonia

PS: As I talk about it, I feel a strong vibration, getting stronger, like it wants to get out, but does not know how !! It gets me so frustrated, because I don't know how to deal with it.

Hi again,

since you're reading Bruce's books, you might want to skip ahead to book 5, The Afterlife Guidance Handbook-- now!  It gives very specific suggestions on what will work at this stage to get you OB, and you are ready, by your description  That's great !

Your energy is rising and will want to exit at the top of your head. Sit up straight*  when you have some quiet pleace and time and breath deeply and gently.
This is not all though --do you have that book?

Bets

*  I'm not trying to be your mother,  ;)  just saying what will work for OBs.

Bets,

"book 5, The Afterlife Guidance Handbook"

I had no idea the book was about that.

I thought it was just another Home Study Course.

Can we buy it in WORD-format. It's so much easier than by POST.

Sonia

Hello Sonia;

Let go back to "Changing or Eliminating Old, Outdated Beliefs" in Bruce book for a while at the bottom the page he says:


Quote:

From experience I know both of these processes work. You can use them to change or eliminate old, outdated beliefs and their effects. Be aware that you might feel a sense of disorientation with the dissolution of an old belief. That old belief was a part of your former identity and it takes a little while to get to know the new you. I've experienced feelings of disorientation, loss of identity and in core belief cases, a feeling like I might die. I've discovered this is connected to the fact that an aspect of my identity does indeed die and is replaced by a new aspect. Part of me actually dies. This was scary until I figured it out. It might feel a little strange to talk to yourself as I'm suggesting. That may be another limiting belief to investigate. As you continue to use these processes, from my experience, examples of progress and growth in your experience will happen.

Sonia you may be going through a "Little Belief Crash" at the moment, that all; nothing to worry about.
To try to put it into my own words...the way i see and understand it is:

The Belief you were holding is like a physical "ROCK"..and now your making conscious moves toward cracking/chipping slowly at this rock; it's sending energy to the core of this ROCK;chipping at it ...removing some of the layers bit by bits until it's pulverized..feels like loosing a good friend who's been there for quite a while but need to move on.....:)
I'ts call a believe crash and we all went thought it one time or another; but you need to realize it's happening..
And sometimes you miss it... but a new you is emerging now keep working on it..IMPO..stay with that exercise for a while..before attempting the OB'er stuff...it will come in time..but like i say it's my personal opinion..
PUL.
R

I posted an entire dream here, and then I lost it due to maintenance.

Sorry.

Sonia

Yes i saw and read your dream...those thing happened..but we did notice your change..:)
Keep moving forward Sonia.
PUL; R.

I felt an enormous bubble vanish at the level of my chest.

Since I much like your point of view on the matter, I'ld like to hear what you have to say about the thing that vanished.

Some of you are really good at clairvoyance and I love that.

Sonia