seagullresting wrote on Sep 4th, 2018 at 7:12pm: The ability to observe oneself, and to realize there are many aspects to ourselves as an individual, is hard to understand or put into words.
But it makes sense. We are always evolving, as is the natural world around us. There are many layers. We can surprise ourselves!
I find myself observing myself a lot lately and it's nice and weird at the same time! For example, I might have a reaction to something and part of me thinks, "Well maybe I should have felt/reacted/said/done something differently." And then another part of me immediately thinks, "No, it's ok. That's how I felt at that moment."
It's not that I literally think in those words, but I just mean that I feel those reactions. And so it's kind of funny to notice myself observing myself! But what I think it is is a part of me is growing out of my old habit of being so self-conscious all the time or feeling like I wasn't good enough, etc.
I'm always reminding myself that we are all always growing and changing and evolving, even when we have no clue what's really going on.
By the way, I have another thought about your experience with the cave/light/good feeling. You may have been working on healing an aspect of self and bringing it back to your whole self. A cave is a good representation of a hiding place, and that's what we essentially do with aspects of ourselves which we cast off. We hide them away so they can't be hurt anymore. You observed the opening/entrance and how you were drawn to the color and light out there, and then experienced healing, so it sounds like you were retrieving something and bringing it out of the darkness and into the light, and then healing commenced.