I read all B's books used the hemi but now I can't even imagine 10 with the circle around it, the field is dark!Used hemi love cd2 years ago and it actually wuz painful! Evertime I would think of getten on this website for 3 years there was a force that would push me away. I have lost the will to live, been bedridden for 3-4 years. Only 41. I lost alot of family members and friends in 2 years to the source or their beliefs. I know they are fine. My grief turned inward and haven't been able to clear my heart, mind, soul out with all this junk inside! I have nightmares were I am murdered in a different way 8 times that I can remember very vivid.My belief system might of crashed? Severe depressoin need PUL.Help please. Sincerly wade