ASPECT RETRIEVALS - ENERGY WEREWOLF & DEFORMED MAN


These retrievals were probably prepared at least 2 months in advance
by my I-There. First, several other things happened at a much earlier
time, which also involved some sort of Aspect of Self retrievals.

The reason that I at all wrote this down to the forum is the
encouragement I got from betson, as I've had a lot of
disbelief in my own experiences.



--- Part 1 - Preparatory sessions (Aspect retrievals) ---

More than 2 months ago I did some kind of retrievals in a way,
which I haven't read about anywhere else on the net or in any
books. I'd read more than 150 retrieval stories of various kinds,
and as I couldn't find anything that resembled these Aspect
retrievals I doubted them to be real.

At the time, my view of retrievals of Aspect of Self, was that you
meet someone, who is afraid and feel abandoned, usually in the form
of a child. You talk to the child (?) Aspect, send PUL and perhaps
offer the child a toy. Then you pick the Aspect up and merge/melt
together with your Aspect of Self. Well, this was not what happened
to me.

These retrievals of mine didn't fit in anywhere.

Perhaps they were just my vivid fantasy playing tricks on me?

My unusual series of retrievals all started with me finding someone
incarnate, who I knew from real life and who seemed to be happy to
see me. To make long stories short, things developed and I just
shouted out:

"I call all Aspects to <PERSON'S NAME>!"

In a few cases I also called out "myself" as "<PERSON'S NAME>".

Then...

At some occasions I managed to see something that looked like
several "ghost" fly into the incarnate person, and immediately
after, I got very heavy physical chills and goose bumps all over
my physical body in several "energy" waves the started at the legs
or back and spread out all over my physical body to my head. At some
times nothing was seen entering the incarnate, but I still got the
chills running up or down my physical body after having shouted
out my request. This could last for minutes with short pauses in
between, as I repeated my non-physical shoutings with request for
Aspect to arrive. When no more chills or goose bumps were felt, or
I got the feeling I had reached a stop, I also stopped my mental
shouting for Aspects.

I was very puzzled, as this meeting-incarnate-friends-calling-for-Aspects
happened over a sequence of several days. I was wondering what on Earth I
did wrong as I couldn't get normal retrievals of Aspects of Self as I did
in the beginning when I started with retrievals. I even put out some
questions on other forums to see if someone could explain to me what
I had experienced.

These retrievals occurred over a week, about 6 times.


The next peculiar thing that happened was a retrieval of an Aspect of Self,
of my own self. I figured out that I was in an astral Sevastopol,
the town at Krim in Ukraine.

To make the long story short:

I entered a basement and pulled out some Black Tar that completely
covered all the walls of the room. It was clear to me that it wasn't
anything I could remove by Seeing-It-Not-There. The Black Tar moved,
scared and "attacked" me. It was clearly a living entity. I absorbed
everything of the Black Tar into me as I guessed it was an Aspect of Self.

The Sevastopol retrieval was probably my most scary retrieval of all
I've done. I felt fear for several days after, a fear which slowly
dissipated.

The only nice thing with the Sevastopol retrieval was at the end when
I got a big hug from a figure that looked exactly like Frankenstein's
Monster, complete with its metal rod through its head. It was a very
kind Frankenstein's Monster, either a thought form or a guide in
disguise.

So..

The scene was set.

But 2 months would pass.

My retrievals of incarnates' Aspects of Selves and the Sevastopol
retrieval may have been some kind of preparation for things to
come.


--- Part 2 - Adjustment session ---

After having retrieved Jesiah I got to see a guide with name Markill.
I tried twice (two different sessions) to figure out what he wanted
me to do, but had no go.

The third day I went to the dome where "Tom Hanks" used to stand.
I couldn't find him. Instead I got to the lawn where Markill was
standing. Good! Now I would get some answers, I thought.

But no.

This sessions was kind of confusing and I was disappointed at my
poor perception the whole time. I made very few notes afterwards
as I both forgot the sequence of events and assumed that noting
important had happened.

Most of what happened was that I seemed to shift to various places,
rooms, outdoor scenes, where I spun around. Sometimes guides or even
incarnates (or their Total Selves/subconsciousness (?)) spun around me.
A short while I even seemed to revisit TMI-There and was inside the
crystal, there were other people there, but the only reason I was there
was because someone could do a minor adjustment to me at the place.

Finally I was back at the lawn with Markill.

He put his hand in my chest. I've been there before. I just have to
stand still as something happens to a non-physical part of myself.

I started to spin on the lawn and Markill started spinning even faster
around me. Then the french theatre woman, with her black hair and red
lips emerged. She also spun around me and put her hand in my head,
at the back of my head.

Eventually Markill put the length of his arm into me, vertically and
spun around. I could only conclude that it was some kind of adjustment,
unknown purpose or function to me.

I felt some energy rushes and some chills going up or down my back.

Then the session ended. I had a little headache.


--- Part 3 - The Werewolf session (long) ---

This session I decided to go to Markill, and perhaps get some answers
and an explanation to his presence. Markill usually stands on a lawn
in a British setting, sometimes in front of a small fence and I've been
able to spot a large Manor in the background. The lawn Markill stands on
is located at a totally different place then the lawn in front of the
dome where I usually find Tom Hanks.

I didn't find Markill, and the lawn I was standing on was Tom H's lawn,
as I saw Tom H and the huge dome behind him.

Nevertheless, I could ask Tom Hanks my question. I asked him if he could
take me to my Total Self. I didn't get a yes or no as I remember it.

Tom Hanks took me into the dome. It was a gray light inside and I saw
the brown marble floor, which I've seen on other occasions. In the far
distance of the interior I could spot a few marble columns.

Then strangely enough I was standing in front of a drapery. The dome's
huge hall seemed gone. We were in a smaller room. Tom Hanks wanted me
to enter the drapery as he moved some part of it away for me. I tried
to go past the drapery, but I saw nothing beyond the drapery. I guessed
that it was en entry for me to travel somewhere and I tried to throw
myself into whatever void there was before me. I could see nothing and
failed to travel anything but a short distance.

I decided to go back. I left the dome and went outside to the lawn. I
asked Tom Hanks what the dome was, and he said it was an entrance to
various places, which he knew I already had guessed.

I was pretty sure I had failed with something as I didn't manage to
perceive what was behind the curtain/drapery.

Something urged me to take a good look at Tom Hanks as he was standing
in front of me. He looked even more of an evil CIA agent, or rather
like the men-in-black agents of the Matrix movies.

Tom Hanks face twisted into a brutal grimace. He grabbed my chest with
both his hands, and very brutally pulled my skin and various internal
parts of me out of my body. It was done with raw brute force. Some part
of my body was left behind me, and I quickly lost connection to that
part of myself. If you've seen Silent Hill, where the demon first rips
the clothes of a woman and then rips her skin off her body, you get the
impression of what it felt to me. It was quite a shock.

For several seconds Tom Hanks pulled and pulled in what was left of me
as he flew higher and higher into space (?).

He looked like a scary brute. And I was a little scared too, but
decided that this was something I should just accept and follow
along with. Being ripped apart by Tom Hanks, was not what I liked.

It was clear as we moved and as I could see his face, that he used his
utmost force to get me moving. It was probably close to what he mustered.

After 10-15 seconds he stopped pulling me and we arrived through some
door (?) into a very long building, which felt like a Transit Hall,
at a very big and modern air port.

The building had the shape of a triangle with its walls bent outwards.
And the "triangle" shape was kind of elongated, so I in fact stood in
a very long building, where the farther end disappeared in the distance.

The left side of the building had an opaque white wall and on the floor
of the left side I felt some kind of small formations, like small houses.

To the right, the roof was mostly made of glass and a lot of light
entered the glass keeping the building well lit, like filled with
sun light.

There were lots of people in the Transit Hall. But I couldn't see any
of them clearly. All the people seemed to be of some kind of higher
spirits and rather neutral with minor leakage of love from random
places.

I was disturbed that my impression was so poor and that I couldn't
see anyone clearly. Some time ago a tall guy with the name William
had taken me for a walk in a park. I remembered that I had made a full
turn in the park and been able to see bushes, trees, lawns, pathways
and a big low building behind us (but no humans).

I tried to do the same turn in this Transit Hall.

I turned a full 360 degrees, to figure out what I could perceive.
I noticed that Tom Hanks was standing behind me, waiting. My view
didn't improve much, even if I managed to get the feeling that the
small indoor buildings to my left could be some kind of simple libraries?
For a moment I wondered if the Transit Hall was some kind of impression
I got of my Total Self, but doubted the idea as it seemed so many
people just was passing through.

I again faced the depth of the Transit Hall.

Uhh...

A Dark Being was standing 20 feet away, facing me. It didn't seem to belong
here. The Dark Being was scary as hell. I kept my calm, but didn't like
the situation. The Dark Being had black fur, claws and predator teeth,
and the air of hostility and its presence was just bad and wrong, wrong.
Totally wrong.

The Dark Being didn't belong in the Transit Hall among all the higher
beings. I could feel it was out of place. How on earth could such a
foul creature enter here?!?

The Dark being was much bigger than me, it started to move around me
in circles. I would have difficulties avoiding it. Could it be an
Aspect of Self, that I needed to integrate into me? Tom Hanks didn't
interfere. I had to cope with the situation myself. I could see the
door behind Tom Hanks, but at the same time got a tiny feeling that
he wouldn't allow me to exit.

The Dark Being now was moving around me as it grew, and looked even
more disgusting. The strange thing was that it didn't feel particular
threatning anymore. It was just big, foul and hairy like a werwolf.

As the Dark Being moved around me, I offered it to enter me. After all
it could be an Aspect that had gone lost in F 27.

The Dark Being started to transform into something much scarier and
terrible. Lots of claws, needles, sharp points, jaws, fangs and unnatural
forms not belonging to any earthly being. I was intensely affected by
the monster Dark Being. I let go of my fear and I immediately felt
that it was not evil or against me.
The Dark Being flooded into me. I got tons of chills and energy surges
up and down my back, legs and body. The amount of chills was enormous,
something I've only felt a few times before (once at the TMI-There
crystal). I realized the Dark Being wasn't anything evil, it was just...
a monster.

And then I started to transform. It happened very quickly.

I became a werewolf, complete with ears, teeth, paws and fur, lots of
fur. I didn't at all look like my childhoods nice cartoon werewolfs, who
looked much more like decent humans. I looked like a wolf standing on its
back legs. I had no fingers, just dog feet!

I moved my werewolf head side-to-side. There still were people around me,
but they seemed to ignore me and keep some distance to me.

Oh my, if the purpose of this travel was to meet my Total Self, I didn't
want to look like a werewolf. How should I explain my appearence?
"I just meet a foul creature in your Transit Hall and I offered it to
enter me. You see, this was what happened..."

Did I feel afraid before or during the Dark Being entered me? Yes, a little,
but nothing compared to my Sevastopol retrieval of the Black Tar Aspect.

Most of my fear had gone. Instead I felt silly.

I tried hard to turn back into my human shape, but failed several times.
Could this be right? I've never heard about anyone go to F 27 and then
turn into another animal, and certainly not a monster. Will anyone
believe me? Maybe I will seem stupid if I tell others about this
transformation?

I'm a werewolf!

Where does a werewolf belong?

Oh... I'm in a forest, a green forest. Yes, a werewolf belongs in a forest!

I can run like a wolf. I run over the ground, past trees and over rocks,
past bushes. I can even jump over small ones. But do I want to be a
werewolf?

Can I change back..? No.

What can I change into then? Anything?

I'm a bird. Yes, now I'm a bird. Didn't I read about someone being a
bird? Was it in Waggoner's book? A woman turned into a bird in an LD!
I've read it, so it must apparently be possible to become a bird!

I can move back and forth on a twig. I chirp! "Chirp-Chirp!"

I quickly move my small tail feathers up and down. I'm a small brown
bird who blends well into the forest. "Chirp!" My small bird feet
move back and forth along a branch with great quickness. "Chirp!"

But wait, I'm not a bird.

Suddenly I'm back into being a werewolf. I realize that I can't change
my appearence anymore. Being a bird for a short while, somehow made me
feel more at ease with being a werewolf. I concentrate on figuring out
why I'm a werewolf.

What am I supposed to do?

The forest seems darker. Yes, I'm supposed to move into the darker parts
of the forest. The dark and scary parts. I'm a werewolf in body but the
dark forest still scares me. I'm not really confident moving into this
kind of surroundings.

I jump around in the black forest. It became denser, but I had no
problems moving around. Now the darkness was also part of my mind.
It was a heavy, bad darkness.

Again I have to make a long story short, or at least shorter:

In front of me was a monster. It was a huge Werewolf-Smoke-Monster. The
best metaphor is if you can imagine a werewolf about 20 feet high combined
with the smoke monster from TV series "Lost". That's the impression I got.

The Werewolf-Smoke-Monster was scary initially, but as time passed,
during the retrieval, I didn't perceive it as scary.

It was just monstrous.

Also, the Werewolf-Smoke-Monster wasn't human either, perhaps not even
an animal in the usual sense? The Werewolf-Smoke-Monster moved around
me like a whirl wind, just being monstrous and terrible.

I tried to figure out what to do in the situation. Having a huge monster
running around me in circles didn't make sense. I could now also feel
Tom Hanks somewhere behind me. I asked Tom what the Smoke-Monster was,
but Tom didn't answer. I then asked the Smoke-Monster: "What are you?"

No answer.

I decided to do as I had done before, but this time the Aspect seemed
to be much bigger than anything I've encountered before. I asked it
to enter me. I sent it PUL. I put myself in an emotional state where
I fully accepted the Werewolf-Smoke-Monster. I shouted out:

"I call my Aspects to me! All Aspects, come to me! You are accepted!
Enter me!"

I got tons and tons of chills and surges down and up my back and
front. But somehow it didn't seem to end. I got a little exhausted
after a while.

I had to rest.


I left the dark forest and moved out onto the much lighter and greener
forest. Eventually I moved out to the clearing of the green forest and
found a meadow. I lay down in my werewolf shape and rested on the thick
grass. I realized that it wasn't really comfortable to lay on back in
a wolf/dog body. I moved to my side and looked at my paws. I still only
had tiny nails, fur paws and nothing that resembled human hands.

I was a werewolf, but somehow I more felt like being a silly dog.

Perhaps I was too kind, to much dog, when I should be more raw animal,
more wolf?

I raise up on all four and entered into the dark forest again. This time
when I saw the whirl wind of the huge Smoke-Monster, I acted out like
a very angry wolf. I put up rage, my fur was standing, I snarled, showed
my teeth. I looked really mean. Like a big bad wolf. I growled and roared.

And roared more again.

In between my roaring I called my Aspects to me. I put out feelings of
acceptance. I sent the feeling to the Werewolf-Smoke-Monster that I was
as much a monster as it felt it was, so it would be just fine for the
Smoke-Monster to enter me. It would feel at home.

One part of me didn't feel like a terrible monster werewolf, and I was
unsure if my approach would be accepted. Each time I roared, the
Smoke-Monster roared back even more monstrous and terrible.

But at some point I leveled with the Werewolf-Smoke-Monster. I wasn't
as bad as the Smoke-Monster but I managed to give off the impression
that I at least deserved to play in the same league.

At this time I've also had the ride of my life with chills and energy
surges going up and down my physical body.

Then the Smoke-Monster little by little diminished in size, it shrank
as it raced around me in its whirl wind style.

In front of me something emerged. It seemed to be a huge pile that
emerged out of the remnants of the Smoke-Monster. The pile looked
almost human. I could spot an eye and a few human teeth in a disfigured
mouth, which seemed so severely deformed that it couldn't be closed.
The rest of the body looked like an extremely, dysfunctional
and shapeless human who had gone trough a lot of burn damage,
combined with Elephantiasis. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Elephantiasis

As I called more and more of my Aspects to me, the deformed human
"pile" shrank and shrank. Swollen body parts became smaller.

The disfigured body now was in the size of half a human. I could feel
how I drifted backwards, ending on my back suspended in mid air.

Two feet long worms with the thickness of my wrist, crawled into my
stomach and into my head. At least three worms entered. I got scared and
remembered a story I've read, that I should avoid astral worms. But then
I change my mind, let go of the fear and accepted the worms. They only
had low animal intelligence. As my resistance to the worms disappeared,
my fear for the worms also went away.

Worms entered me more than once. I got tons of chills.

I started to turn back into my human shape. I had hands and a completely
normal human body now. Some parts of the Smoke-Monster still circled me
but most of it was gone. The total interaction with the Werewolf-Smoke-Monster
must have taken more than 20 minutes in real time.

The pile of burnt human fat flesh shrank until only a deformed head and
a small stump below the neck remained.

The Smoke-Monster was gone.

I lifted up the repulsive head and told it that I accepted it and
sent it PUL. The head didn't seem to want to enter me. I said I needed
it, that we were the same. I needed that Aspect. It should not be alone.

I was kind of exhausted now and was not completely clear about what to do.
I may not have clicked out, but somehow I lost it, or at least lost the
last part of what to do. So perhaps it was a click out?

Click?

I could perceive the shell of an animal. I wasn't in the forest anymore.
Perhaps this was a very barren land. I saw almost no plants.

Then I saw the shell again and realized it was a shell of an Almost-Turtle.

It didn't really look like any turtle I've seen on picture or real life.
The Almost-Turtle had too flat a turtle house to be a real turtle, the
turtle shell was also too smooth and the legs of the Almost-Turtle were
too big. The head had the beak of a bird, like an eagle's beak.

I got the feeling that the Almost-Turtle was a being of its own. It had
wisdom and some kind of simple intelligence. It was between humans and
animals, but closer in intelligence to animals than to humans.

The Almost-Turtle was 1.5 meters long and about 1 meter wide.

I wondered if I was on another planet, because I didn't get the feeling
of Earth. Or was it Earth in another time? The Almost-Turtle seemed old.

Then I got it.

The Almost-Turtle was a part of my I-There. So I got to see part of my
Total Self after all!

I got more chills, lots of chills!

I also felt some inner turmoil, which eventually calmed down.

I looked at the Almost-Turtle. It looked cute. I did as we humans do
sometimes with pet animals. Standing on its right side. I petted the
Almost-Turtle on its head as it looked at me with eyes of wisdom.

Then the Almost-Turtle started moving. It walked past me with a speed
somewhat faster than a human walking. I looked after it as it disappeared
in the distance. When it was almost gone, it turned in an odd way and waved
at me with it right front leg. I could feel that this waving was the work
of Tom Hanks, and that it was a kind of joke too. I waved back in a similar
manner and felt happy.

Thanks for sharing these with us here. It is always wonderful to read the experiences people are able to share. I find your 'absorption' of the beings, and the description of your reactions, and the details amazing.

  Speaking of lacking in Light Beings: Perhaps somewhat related.  I went to a library recently after not going for a long while, and a book called "Memories of Creation" caught my eye.  It was written by a woman who is a trained therapist.  Like some other therapists, she stumbled upon the benefits of past life regression, which then led to in between life (nonphysical experiences) regressions.

   Some of her patients started to recall memories of Creation as well.  She became very curious about this facet, and began to explore these concepts with more and more of her patients.

  I must say that i was at first a bit turned off by the beginning of the book, because she talked about how her patients reported having both "demons" and unfriendly/ignorant/immature human discarnates being attached to them and influencing them. 

  It sounded kind of fundamentalist religious to me at first.  But when i started to read the memories of Creation stuff, i was blown away by how much it resonated with my deepest intuitive sense, and that i had felt and imagined similar before hand.   

  So i decided to read the whole book and remain open minded.  Anyways, what's interesting is that the book substantiates the belief that there is some kind of "Satan" Being that exists. 

  I will try to sum up the synthesis of what her patients have described about Creation and how it all came about.

  There was a undifferientiated Consciousness which existed within a seeming black void.  It was just a type of intelligence within the void, and had not yet become concrete "Light". 

  But this intelligence was experimenting, and struck together different frequenices or "notes", to create new forms. 

  At some point, it created "the Light".  Through this Light, this Intelligence began to create other individualized consciousnesses from within itself. 

   Each one was unique and had some self awareness, but it all was very "collective" at this point.

  The original Light, or Co-Creator spark, along with all the other Lights, started rotating and expanding, and parts of this Light were flung off into the void. 

When this happened, parts of "God" started to feel somewhat anxious and fearful.

  So the original Light Being, along with the rest of God struck on the idea of enacting a fuller Creation in order to cover the "void" with the Light so that no aspect of self could get lost in the void.  Also the reason to Create became attractive because the orignal Light was aware that some parts of self were smaller and weaker or larger and more powerful than others, and that due to the losing aspects of self/God in the void and some of the first awareness of non pleasant feelings it sparked in some, that all Sparks and Lights were growing at different rates, and some remained small.

  So the original LIght figured that if the collective Created, it would enable all aspects of Self to be able to reach the same size and equalness in power.

  Many aspects of God were in favor of this decision to Create, but some aspects of God were not in favor.   Meanwhile, there was something going on with one of the larger Balls of Light, who was larger than most, but smaller than some.   Originally, this Ball of Light was completely White like every other Ball of Light. 

  Some kind of accident happened, and this Ball of Light started to become darker and darker.  This Ball of now Dark Light, did not want Creation to happen, it was totally against the idea.

It was mainly against the idea because of the fear of the unknown, and because this Ball was larger than most and did not want the other Balls of Light smaller than it to become as large and powerful as it self.   It wanted to be God itself, and to make decisions on it's own.

  It started to gather all the other Balls of Light who were also against the idea of Creation and those who were hesitant about it. 

    The Dark Ball of Light, which we will now call "Satan" tried to influence as much these other Balls of Light which were previously White.  As some listened to Satan, they started to become grey or black themselves.   He tried to instill fear in them about the idea of Creation. He told them things like, "we will become destroyed if we allow Creation to happen".  Since he did not respect Freewill like many of the other Balls of Light, he even tried to force this change in some. 

  It was like an infection which happened, and started to spread.  According to her patients though, it was still a minority of Balls of Light which became seduced by Satan's claims.  They agree that it was only about 10 percent of the Total Light of God that became really opposed to the idea of Creation. 

   The Original Light tried to reason with Satan and told him that "Everything will be alright, in fact it will be better for everyone if we decide to Create.  Please join us." 

    Satan was deaf to It's suggestions.  The original Light/the Collective of Light that wanted Creation, realized that it would need to separate Satan and his followers before it enacted Creation because this infection would spread to Creation and have destructive effects. 

  In general, these grey and black Balls were already on the very outer edge and periphary because they found the very fast/high vibrations in the core of God (where the original Ball of Light was) to be unpleasant for them.  They decided they wanted to leave anyways. 

  So they went out into the void and experienced the "first forgetting".  Many who had followed Satan had forgotten all of the previous existence, but Satan remembered at least his original awareness that he was with and in God originally, but rebelled against the idea of Creation.  Some of the patients refer to his followers has becoming "demons" when they went into the void and forgot their origins. 

  With Satan and his followers gone, The original Ball of Light with the collective Light of God, began Creation. 

  First the God Light created the "Masters" out of some of the Balls of Light.  These would be the initially most powerful and aware aspect of God, created to protect and guide all other levels of Creation.  Later we learn that some of these Masters would occasionally have an in physical life on Earth or in other physical worlds.  We learn that the original Ball of Light, the Co-Creator Ball created the "Masters" also partially because he wanted to Retrieve both the original lost aspects, and then also the ones that rebelled against Creation.  The collective God at this point, knew that it could never be completely Whole and content until all aspects of Self were retrieved, and besides the original Creator Ball of Light loved Satan and his followers as much as It loved any other Ball of Light.   

  Then the level of Angels were created within Consciousness.  This Level of Creation was not meant to reincarnate into physical worlds, but was created to act as messengers out from the core of God.  The most powerful and closest level of the Angels to the Core of God were the Archangels who had almost the awareness and power of the Masters, and like the Masters also had the job of protection.  Again, these would never incarnate as humans or other similar Life forms on other planets. 

   Then the Souls of plants, animals, and Humans and their similar counterparts were created. 

Then the physical worlds and Universe was Created, with the forms that "fit" to the Consciousness aspects.  The Consciousnesses that were created out of the collective Balls of Light to be humans and similar sentient Beings on other Worlds, could evolve and grow to be like the Masters e.g., become One with the Core of God and become full Co Creators.

  Meanwhile, Satan with more awareness than his followers, found and gathered up his followers, and continued the deceit and told them that he was the one that Created them, that they must listen to him, that they must stay away from the Light because the Light will destroy them.

  And so, they have been trying to mess with Creation since. 

  Some of this information came from the patients subconscious memories or in other words, Soul self level.  Some was given by, or directed to by Helpers or Heavenly Beings who were working with the patients and the therapist.

  One of her patients who was being negatively influenced by what this source calls a "demon", along with the therapist herself, witnessed first hand the conversion of this "demon" (extremely lacking in light consciousness) into a Ball of clean, bright, Light again. 

   Many Helpers were involved in this, and kind of held this LILB while the therapist talked to it and she explained to it what was really true.  Apparently the LILB and listened enough to have some cracks in it's belief system happen, and before their eyes with help of the Heavenly Beings, started to transform into a Light Being (maybe not to the full extent though).  It expressed an apology to her patient for causing so much problems, and then left. 

   Anyways, it is an interesting book, and it does substantiate that there are some powerful LIL' Beings out there, which are filled with destructive intentions and that they do cause problems for people if they are allowed in so to speak. (there are various ways this can happen according to this source, and none necessitate a "belief" in or fear of dark Beings contrary to popular New Age belief[s] .)

  Like mentioned, discarnate humans sometimes attached to humans and try to influence them , and while they sometimes caused some issues, it wasn't usually to the degree or severity that the non human "demons" did.

  This book explains some very odd references found in the Edgar Cayce readings.

   Info and concepts that very much align to the above.  For example, it was mentioned that there was an original rebelling Spirit before the Creation of the Universe came to be.

  There is an odd reference to "accidents".  There is one reading goes something like, "few things happen by chance, but sometimes there are accidents, even in creation.  Strange info, but true." 

  When asked who "Halaliel" was (a Being who had named itself as one of the sources or guides that worked with Cayce), the people were told that Halaliel was "One in and with whose courts Ariel fought when there was a rebellion in heaven.

  Now, where is Heaven?  Where is Ariel, and who was he?  A companion of Lucifer or Satan, and one that made for the disputing of the influences in the experiences of Adam in the Garden."  excerpted from Reading 262-57

Or this Reading:

"Q--In relation to the Oneness of all force, explain the popular concept of the Devil, seemingly substantiated in the Bible.

A--In the beginning, celestial beings.  We have first the Son, then the other sons or celestial beings that are given their force and power.

  Hence that force which rebelled in the unseen forces (or in spirit), that came into activity, was that influence which has been called Satan, the Devil, the Serpent; they are One.  That of rebellion!"  Reading 262-52

  The above is a generalized explanation though. 

Here we have a more specific reference: 

"the prince of this world, Satan, Lucifer, The Devil--as a soul--made those necessities, as it were, of the consciousness in materiality; that man might--or that the soul might--become aware of its separation from the God-force.  Hence the continued warring this is ever present in materiality or in the flesh, or the warring--as is termed--between those influences of good and evil."  Reading 262-89

  I wouldn't believe all this, except that before i read the above book, i specifically did a meditation with the intention of finding out the true of this whole "Satan" deal if there really was such a Consciousness that existed as the original rebeller in Spirit. 

  I fell asleep during the meditation, and remembered a dream which told me that there was such a Being and influence, but that if i kept my vibratory patterns raised and fast/high vibratory, i could not be influenced or affected by such a Being. 

  Funny enough, when i was a young child, even though i wasn't exposed to much religiousness in the home, i still had some awareness of some concepts via other sources. 

  I remember i use to have the idea and feeling of wanting to help "Satan", to help him to realize that he could change and become like and be with God again.  In hindsight, i was apparently aware on some level of the broadest meaning of Retrieval.   

 

   

   

betson wrote on May 16^th, 2011 at 10:35pm:

I hope I get you right with my reply below. If not, please overbear with me.


It didn't seem wrong to do them, that was not my problem with those retrievals.

My problem was that no one else had reported doing this sort of retrievals, by just calling out in the empty air. Reason why I felt it was a problem for me is as follows:

If I experience something which other people have already experienced, I tend to put much more validity into my own experience as I think I've managed to replicate something genuine.

If I experience something, which no one before me has experienced, I put a lot of doubt into that experience, and start to consider it a mere fantasy.


betson wrote on May 16^th, 2011 at 10:35pm:

Thanks, that was a valid point.

It could be possible that the flow/merge of Aspects happened so fast that there was no visual impression of it. Perhaps I have to rely on my feeling of goose bumps? They seem to occur when I apparently succeed with something (I hope).

Well, sometimes I get the goose bumps for minutes, without having succeed or without having done _anything_. But the "energy" waves accompanying my goose bumps often comes at the end of a session (if they occur at all), be it meditation, sending healing or doing retrieval. So I view goose bumps and waves running up and down my physical body either as some kind of reward for me having done a good session, or as the symptom of another piece of positive transformation of my non-physical Self, leading to growth.

For example, if I'm at the end of a retrieval and suddenly feels the goose bumps flow over me, I consider the goose bump waves as confirmations that I've succeeded and finished the retrieval.

But at the other side, if I feel a ton of goose bumps during the retrieval, I can't consider it a physical sensation that marks a finish of events. So I have to sense or look for other signs, indicating the end of the retrieval.

I want a goose bumps guide.

I've got a little more info now. The Dark Being at the Transit Hall was NOT an Aspect.

In total there were 5 Aspects of Self who merged with me. I think at least one of the dark ones, was from a time when I couldn't "fight" for myself. Instead an Aspect of me was created and helped me, but when things were over, my Aspect was lost and alone. I'm happy they are back, as I feel more at peace.