moonsandjunes
Ex Member
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Actually, hope, what you just described sounds just like the evening I just had, in 'real' life. I don't really know how to encourage you except to say that life does go on. If it helps in any way, just know that other people are facing the same kinds of pressures, the same kinds of disparagement, the same kind of emotional chaos. Whether these situations come from 'within' or 'without' it does not really matter. The only time I become frustrated is when I expect that life will be different! When I expect that 'all of the sudden' all of life will be interested in pleasing me, will be interested in having me understand it, will be accomodating to my actual or professed 'needs'.
This rarely happens. And when it does, I embrace it.
For good or for ill, this life is one in which you can recognize a miracle when it occurs. Any moment in which we feel joy, feel loved, feel recognized, feel understood, feel human is a miracle. There are some of us who are better at mirroring peace, love, tolerance, faithfulness, etc. than others, at any given moment. And there are some fragments of ourselves which are also better at mirroring these qualities back to our greater selves.
So, in my way of thinking, one takes the fragments which are mirroring that which moves one in the direction which seems most loving, the most caring....not just for others but for self, the whole self.
In addition to the fragments of self, of which I speak, there is the entire thrust of creation which can be tapped. This includes beings of a higher nature than our own. If your energy is being drained there is something wrong with the connection, obviously. I believe that true spiritual work is not draining, and does not come at the cost of your own life force. The 'greater powers' are supposed to support you. Otherwise, they are not doing anyone any good, ultimately.
That's just my take on things. For the moment.
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