Tim F.
Ex Member
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I asked to go to the school. There was no one there, it was empty and peaceful. Not a soul... quiet. I returned to c1 and wondered at that.
I tried again. This time there were invisibles sweeping what looked like ash from the floors, others were scrubbing gunk from walls. One helper turned and said "Hi Tim" and then went back to scrubbing the wall. There were no recently deceased in the vicinity.
Later, I ask to go to the school at a time when I can be of most benefit. I am there, it is like being in smoke, it feels difficult to breathe or see clearly. It feels heavy and intense. A young woman looking dazed is in front of me saying "I'm hurt", she's holding her belly, there is blood. The atmosphere brightens, "I'm taking you to the roof, there's a medical evacuation copter to take you away" i look at my legs, I'm wearing a green pants, some kind of uniform. I half carry her, she is weeping, we're in the bright open space of the roof, there is a helicopter with smiling forms inside and just outside it, I take her to them and they carry her inside, there's a rush of wind as everything turns to light.
Later, in between waking and sleeping, I am back at the school, there is a young man, he says "I'm dead". I am surprised. I say "yes, you died". "Are you an angel or something like that?" "No, but I'll introduce you to friends that can help you" Helpers are visible near him now, he sees them. "There's something you can do" I say to him. I tell him how he can be of help to the others here. This kid doesn't seem taken aback by this situation....
These are thumbnail sketches. There was another event after the girl with the copter. I don't know what to think about any of this, don't feel a big need get to explain it to myself, doing without knowing outcomes is enough.... Inside it, I'm just reacting to the enviornment I find myself in. I'm going back later tonight, to the time-period immediately after the shootings.
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