Greetings.

I debated where to place this post before I finally concluded that I would place it here as it appears to have occurred in a non-ordinary state of OBE, partially lucid dream.

I completed my nightly meditation and slipped into bed. My mind was calm and I listened to the sound of an early Spring rain outside the window. I drifted into sleep on the thought of awakening. At some point, the 3D darkness is replaced with myself standing in front of a table. There are individuals seated around the table, both men and women, although my focus was strangely enough not focused on faces. I recall saying something to the group when suddenly I feel a sweeping energy from my feet upward, then explode outward. I was completely taken aback by it, but not frightened. I raised my hand in the air, brought it down hard on the table for emphasis and announced my name, only to realize that it was the name of my companion -- the guide. I was, for lack of a term, dream channeling. As his voice spoke, it was not human, but energy forcing its expression. I could not understand what he said, with exception to announcing his name. I recall the vague feeling of "I'm here, but I'm not" and feeling the mechanical gestures. I grew somewhat concerned, at which point he withdrew his energy and inquired to my well being. I didn't feel violated or intruded upon, and no fear even after the fact. I expressed that I should try this again, but I needed a little more control of whatever self I was in (very difficult to describe); so, I emerge into my bedroom; the sweeping sensation again then I feel myself swing to the side of my bed, get up, walk through the house -- feeling this strange energy buffer. I walked through the house and into the kitchen. At this point, I am suddenly struck by the fact that I can't feel myself breathing (this use to be a huge fear during inital projections of consciousness because breath = life and if no breath = no life. I realized later that good ole body goes into auto-breath mode and I haven't worried about it since)...until now. I requested energy withdraw, which occured, with the advice to remain focused. I couldn't regain focus, but did not get snapped back to the body either. For some irrational (and MOST comedic reason), I began to do jumping jacks. I knew that guide was concerned, but he good-naturedly told me that if I was attempting to get back to the physical I should stop trying to jump to the moon. At that moment, I thought -- Oh, I'm nonphysical -- and then gave the return command and awoke in my bed.

I looked left and right -- the electrical waves felt like sparks. I took a deep breath and said that that was enough for one night, then rolled over and went back to sleep -- unafraid and unhindered for the rest of the night.

It doesn't sound so WOW when I write it, but the experience was beyond any gift I could ever have given myself. I have since learned that guide blended with me to buffer some of the energy. His banging hand on table scene was his trying to get my focused attention. During my slip into the projection/partial lucid dream, I was still thinking about my "awakening" which I apparently likened to awakening to my total being. True to the idea of instant manifestation, the explosion of energy was swift. Normally, guide states feeling more expanded is not usually a problem; however, the way I focused my attention with such vehemence, I drew to myself too much too quickly. The amount of energy and the sudden impact of it disoriented me. Guide realized it and buffered the energy -- he always has permission to intervene if he senses danger that I am unaware of in any sense of the word. He has only had to do this one other time during a projection when a stray thought put me in harms way and he literally pushed me back into the physical. (That was before I knew him).

As to this night, he said that I thought I could awaken to my whole self or something I don't recall. Basically, I was trying to absorb the total energy of my total self to experience its totality  and he was trying to reason for me for lack of a better way of explaining. The second attempt was his energy only, which was different (even within energy, it seems you can sense the difference in tones or vibrations, so that although you are intermingled, you still sense your individual nature as well as that of the other).

And Guide still laughs at my being the first experience he's had with nonphysical jumping jacks -- at least the way I must have appeared to be doing them.

How embarassing. LOL  


E.  

Sounds pretty WOW to me, Essence.  while descriptions can be tricky your description makes the experience much more than WOW.  Thanks for sharing.  Rob