Hi everyone. Recently I was talking with Bruce about self retrievals and it really got me so curious about this aspect of retrievals. I want to learn more about it, especially the concept of retrieving a part of your self from this present lifetime. That is fascinating to me.
I know that the "self" part is something I have been avoiding. I admit, I'm kind of scared to do a self retrieval. I think that's because of all the talk of belief system crashes, of which I'm proud to say I haven't had one. Unless I'm just really good at denial.
I am well aware of many painful parts of my life. I've managed to stuff them down and not have to deal with them, but perhaps that is only an illusion. Maybe we are never really ok just by forgetting the bad stuff. But that's where my fear lies, having to reintegrate and remember painful parts of my life. I know that self retrievals don't have to be painful, but I'm just being honest about my apprehensions.
So, I'm hoping that this fear won't block me from being able to experience a self retrieval. I tried the self retrieval exercise with Bruce's CD's tonight and at first I thought the process was going very well. I had no trouble at all getting very deeply relaxed, but the problem is, I either clicked out or simply fell asleep.
I remember coming and going at different times while listening to his voice. I would try to remember anything but any memory left me so quickly. His talking me through going to the park and swinging on the swing was wonderful so I'm glad I was conscious for that. I really got into it, and forgot how much fun a swing used to be. Then I got interrupted just before imagining the helper coming, so unfortunately I didn't finish the exercise and therefore I don't have anything to report.
I will keep trying and will definitely report something when I get it.
If anyone has some good advice I'd love to hear it.
Love, Vicky