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Feb 26th, 2006 at 11:39pm
 
About 4 years ago, I posted this story on Bruce's site.  But the landscape here has totally changed since then and I thought I should post it again so that newbies might discover what makes me tick with respect to this site's retrieval claims.  

I dated Janet seriously when I was in grad school.   Our relationship came close to engagement, but I was a poor young grad student distracted by great academic pressures and by compatibility issues.   Besides, Janet, a social worker, was unusually prone to depression and I found it hard to deal with this.   So we eventually broke up.  

She occasionally threatened to commit suicide and I somehow sensed she was serious.  But you can't marry someone just to prevent suicide.    She moved to D.C. and dated other men, who basically treated her like a sex object.  Janet was very pretty.  I was worried about her and kept tabs on her for a year or so, but then we lost contact.   To my horror, I eventually learned that she bought a gun and blew herself away.   It was then I realized how much I love her, despite my hang-ups, and I felt intense remorse over how I had mishandled that relationship.  I can only say now that sometimes we grow up at other people's expense.  

At that time, I had never heard of retrievals, but I desperately wanted reassurance of Janet's postmortem wellbeing.   Using self-hypnosis, I taught myself how to have an OBE.  I floated up to the ceiling and looked down on my body in my bed.  I was struck by my messy hair!   Then I worried about whether I could safely reenter my body; so I floated down and lay on top of it.  But my astral fingers just couldn't merge with my physical fingers.  This frightened me and I woke up.

Not long afterwards, I had a particularly vivid dream.   I floated up to a small booth in the etheric realm, where I encountered an official looking woman at a  desk with a green curtain behind her.  I asked to see Janet.   She informed me that Janet was not ready yet to see me.   This should have sent me on my way.  But suddenly I was overwhelmed with emotion--a combination of love for Janet and rage at the thought that she was still in deep distress.  With an omnipotent-like  feeling, I blurted out, "But I must see her now!"  

At that, the woman vanished and the curtain shook violently as if buffeted by an etheric wind.  Janet suddenly appeared before me and we embraced passionately.   She kept saying over and over again, "I'm OK, Sweetie, I'm OK, I'm OK!"   The tenderness of that reunion was one of the most profound experiences of my life.   I was struck by the fact that she appeared to me as a smaller teen-age version of Janet rather than as the mature young woman I had known.

I was ecstatic about all this for a few years.  My glee vanished when I taught myself to experience lucid dreams.   I wanted to know if a lucid dream about astral projection might invalidate my OBE and retrieval experience.  I decided to project to Boston at high noon when it was midnight in my New York home.   During this projection I was fully aware of my sleeping body back home.   I stood opposite the Boston Common on a sunny day at noon, heard the honks and the din of many pedestrian voices, smelled the gas fumes, and saw the scenery and buildings in as much detail as in real life.   I was awestruck: never before had I had a dream this real!

Then I was struck by the thought that I was god in this dream universe because I had created all I saw and experienced.  As pedestrians passed by, I decided to stop a lady and discuss the dream with her.  But when I grabbed her arm, she screamed.   I calmly explained that I was dreaming, that my body was "back there" in bed, and that she was a mere fignent of my imagination.   She looked at me like I was a wacko and got more scared.   By now I was attracting the attention of others and got scared myself.  The woman was acting just the way a real woman might react if accosted by a stranger and I had no control over her reactions.  My increasing fear soon woke me up.

After my initial elation over this dream faded, it gradually dawned on me that this dream was every bit as real as my OBE and my retrieval of Janet.   I eventually came to the reluctant conclusion that those treasured experiences were also just lucid dreams and nothing more.  

This disillusionment makes me a bit too touchy about this site's poorly verified retrieval claims.  Most posters here seem to construe every dream about deceased loved ones as a genuine contact.   This strikes me as naive.  But I'm glad people are still trying and I wish them success, despite my skepticism.   All my bogus OBEs have occurred during sleep.  I've never had an OBE in the waking state and hope that if and when I do, I may finally retrieve Janet for real some day.  Until then, I must content myself with my belief in the possibility of retrievals on biblical grounds.

I don't have the time to both post regularly here and experiment in a disciplined way with astral exploration techniques.  So when I complete my extended dialogue with Spitfire, I will abandon this site indefinitely in the hope of finding the discipline to seek astral travel.  I will use my Gateway CDs and the techniques in the Brian Mercer and Robert Bruce primer "Mastering Astral Projection."  I've used both apporaches in the past in an undisciplined way.  If those methods fail, I will probably buy Bruce Moen's latest book and experiment with his techniques.

Don
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Reply #1 - Feb 27th, 2006 at 4:41pm
 
It would be sad to see you go.  You are an amazing voice here, a powerful intellect.  I would guess that there are many of us that have Christian backgrounds or do not want to lose our view of Jesus but also are open minded enough to explore what Bruce has to show us and have an adventurous / curious spirit.  Its not easy to synthesize these views and I appreciate what you have done / continue to do.

I lost my mom a couple years ago and have had multiple nightmares of her in hell (not a typical hell, more of something Bruce would describe).  She may be there; she may be stuck; I have personally come to the realization that dealing with this is too much and then I stopped having these dreams.  I want to develop my abilities enough to do retrievals, and figure some day, possibly, I might be able to help my mom if she needs it.  Having said that I share what I think is a healthy skepticism of dreams and retrievals, however if you read Bruce's stuff you realize he does the same thing and is pretty cautious.
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Reply #2 - Feb 27th, 2006 at 4:56pm
 
wow, pretty nice story there don.you are correct in that, it's very rare you hear that people say obe's could be mear dreaming.

I would suggest doing an experiment to see wether these claims are true or if that they are mearly fantasy's.

when you manage to go obe while awake, - i would suggest visiting someone you know, find out what they are doing and looking for things which are unusual. such as a person visiting his mothers, or other unusual occurance's to which, once you wake up - you can verify them.

if you reproduce that experiment a number of times, it would build a strong case, that your obe's are real.

i would appreciate if you shared your results with me.

cheers
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Reply #3 - Feb 28th, 2006 at 2:05am
 
>>This disillusionment makes me a bit too touchy about this site's poorly verified retrieval claims.<<
Greetings Don,
How can you say that after you yourself used this site to extoll the truth of Swedenbourg's astral contacts? 
There are many ways to verify claims. We support each other by a cross-current of methods.
Ask Spitfire to share ALL the results people have given him about his gram being safe there and see if you don't believe that Craig's friends have proven his Gram is safe there.
Are you seeking controlled, sci-rigorous studies?
We don't want you to go; you add so much.
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Reply #4 - Feb 28th, 2006 at 2:43am
 
Betson,

I've read through Bruce's archived retrievals and  honestly don't find them convincing.  Yet I'm confident that I have as strong a desire to believe in retrievals as anyone here.  In fact, if I could perform just one convincing retrieval, then my life direction would dramatically change to do and promote such rescue operations.  I might even try to start a church devoted to retrievals because I can't imagine a nobler cause and I can show that, as late as 200 AD, the church encouraged OBEs during the Sunday worship service.      

I meant that I'm "touchy" in the sense of the tension between my need to believe in retrievals and my frustration about both my own bogus retrieval and those posted on this site.   But Swedenborg's example keeps my mind open to the possibility that I may one day succeed.  If and when I do, it will be one of the most important moments in my life. 

Craig, the type of retrieval you suggest is important.   It is so easy to succumb to wishful thinking like I did for my "encounter" with Janet.  Also, I suspect that it's easy to confuse lucid dreams with genuine OBEs.  Swedenborg's success in this area demonstrates that impressive verifications are possible. 

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Reply #5 - Feb 28th, 2006 at 1:22pm
 
To be skeptical is healthy. Excessive skeptisim is not, it keeps one from exploring, and looking beyond the obvious, to believe in the impossiable to be possiable. OBEs are real, I prooved this to myself by projecting into my neighborhhood, taking a look what was going on outside, early one morning. All it took was finding a little girl riding her bike. Taking note of the type of  bike, color, her hair, what she was wearing, and the tassles hanging off her handlebars. I later took a walk, found the bike, and saw her playing out in her yard later that day. One of 3 cases of confirmation. Through experience and confirmation all doubt is released, and doors open in all directions. Find a way to allow you to truely believe.
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Reply #6 - Feb 28th, 2006 at 7:11pm
 
Give it up dwdream. I'll tell you what the sceptics would say: You just tapped into hidden/unconscious memories, which also could be regularly achieved in states of hypnosis. Right, Berserk?
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Reply #7 - Feb 28th, 2006 at 7:49pm
 
Spooky,

Some skeptics may respond like that, but if I had an OBE verification like Dwdream's, I just might be convinced of its genuiness.   Of course, the authenticity of retrievals is a separate question which the right kind of verifcations might answer.

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Reply #8 - Feb 28th, 2006 at 8:51pm
 
Yes, Berserk. It's this thing what for me is kind of sad to see: The crown of your efforts, so it seems to me, would be to get a proof that a retrieval is true. But I see no possibility how that could be done. Even if one gets informations which no other could know than the retrievee (the treasure hidden in the ground or similar things, and even with this one can't be sure if no other knows about that so telepatic contact can't be excluded), you could still say someone didn't meet a deceased, but got access to an information pool, often called "Akasha Chronics". So, you only can get personal evidence, means the experience must such impressive for you that you just don't think about anymore what kind of real it is. (To verify OBE is of course easier, though you have to interpretate how the data come to you, during traveling with another body or via remote viewing etc, as I know you know.) But, an impressive experience you had already! Ok, without verifiable facts maybe.

So, do you see a possibility at all for you to be satisfied with any of your possible future OoBEs or retrievals after seeing this theoretical limit of possibilities?

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Reply #9 - Mar 1st, 2006 at 8:25am
 
One thing with knowing through experience, one doesn't need to proove it to anyone. It is nice to share the information. Take it or leave it, but thier the ones depriving themselves of one of the biggest awnsers  to a question of the human race.
If thier not willing to do the walk, and the exploring, and the investigation on a personal level. The Skeptics are the ones left behind.
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Reply #10 - Mar 1st, 2006 at 9:54am
 
don, actually has gone oob.

does that not make him truely qualified to justify what he saw, and wether it was real or not?.

someone who was not open to different possibility's would have not had the conviction to even try to go obe.

we all have ability's which we excel at, anyone who aint willing to prove there experience's, must have some weak validations or are extremely selfish, it almost seems like people who go out of body are like people giving someone a small bit of heroine to get them hooked, so they keep having to buy the crap there selling. if i could go out of body, i would be proving it to anyone who asked me, for without using external source's of verification - one could not be sure wether there deluding themselves.

it's very easy to think of tests, which would prove that reality of these claims. But no one steps forward to prove there experience's.
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Reply #11 - Mar 1st, 2006 at 10:28am
 
What would it take to proove life outside of the physical body? Only the experience itself, at least at this stage of our human evolution. Technology isn't there to do so, to follow ones soul beyond the physical. Has anyone scene the movie Brain Storm?
A great example of a man following a friend into the afterlife by way of technology.
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Reply #12 - Mar 1st, 2006 at 11:01am
 
dwdreamer,
Your example is excellent! Bruce David Rubin, author of Brain Storm, is a spiritual / kundalini adept/master?, who studied in India and is so at home OoB that he teaches, writes, and is working with technology that promotes OB to help others experience some of what he experienced. Let the skeptics tell that master he doesn't know what he's doing!  
I was so fortunate to cross paths with him in the early 1970's and he took me on a OoB Exploration then.
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Reply #13 - Mar 1st, 2006 at 11:30am
 
If you want proof then go for it. I was fortunate to have a NDE in my 20s. This got me started to recreate the experience, and hopefully more. It took me 10 yrs to have my first OBE. I was determined, and persistant. I learned I had to break old habits, beliefs that I was brained washed with, and had to clense myself in more ways I can count, but I did it, once I put my mind to it and committed myself.
No one said it would be easy, and often things of this great of value do not come easy. I to have shared my experiences, and have taught classes on the topic of; The Alternate Reality Experience, along with numerious presentations at Borders Book Stores. Hopefully soon my first book will be out there. This is how we learn, by sharing so it does make it easier for the next student getting on the path. Many of us have walked the many miles, put in the hard work, and time so the next human being can take that many less steps, and go further on the journey to teach others, like myself or others like Bruce,  Robert Monroe, Robert Petterson, Rick Stack have.
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Reply #14 - Mar 1st, 2006 at 12:24pm
 
10 years of trying to have an obe? seems like a waste of time if it takes 10 years, might as well wait till you die and stay there 24/7.

Robert monroe, goes well beyond whats considered feasible, he claims he's met someone on earth who's thousands of years old, and that he's met a race of umpa lumpa's, not to mention meeting future and past versions of himself.

all these claims are very nice story's, but without real time experimention, thats all they are.

I dont believe it requires, personal experience to believe in the afterlife. some people choose not to fly, but they know it's possible.
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