ASPECT RETRIEVAL - BLACK WOMAN AMETYST

I didn't do my full regular preparations for this session, but I did ask
for any kind of modification by Helpers & Guides, but with one change this
time. As I requested modification I specifically requested the modification
to help me become better at doing OBEs and to better understand what I read
in my books. This specification was suggested by LaughingRain.

That was the two clear goals I gave to my Guides and Helpers.

I listened to H-S Wave I, CD 2. First I did track #3 and not much
happened. Then I did track #4. It's a track where you are supposed
to watch your fears and let them rise upwards like bubbles of air
in water. Then release the emotion behind the fear and finally absorb
whatever caused that emotion. I've not been too successful with that
approach. I have either started with absorbing my fears or have fallen
asleep.

This was my third or fourth listening to track #4.

I don't have too many fears, but I did as the exercise said. I imagined
a fear, a brutal motorbiker guy attacking me with a knife as I had seen
that event on the TV the day before. I tried some more fearful situations
but couldn't really follow the exercise. Eventually I didn't pay full
attention to Monroe's voice.

Instead I remembered the TV series The Nanny, and I saw Fran. She was
indoors in a regular house and she greeted me in a manner similar to
her acting in the TV series. She wore a tight short dress with horizontal
stripes and some thigh high stockings in funny colors, like the ones she
have in her actual TV-show. There was a slight feeling of attractiveness
and sexyness to her behavior. At the same time I kind of saw the scene
from a third party position. I was both in first person and in third
person, shifting from moment to moment.

Hmm...

This scene did start rolling like a retrieval, but it was different in some
kind of way. Was I missing something?

My vision was not as clearcut as in some of my other retrievals, things
were fluctuation too much.

I tried to improve my view of Fran. Did she indeed have very high, shiny boots?


The scene shifted.

I was outdoors, perhaps at some open town square. There wasn't much traffic.
I saw a woman walking towards me some distance away. It was not Fran, but
the woman had the same dark hair. She looked younger, perhaps below 30, and
she was possible from southern France, Spain, or possible Italy. She really
had a huge hair. She walked on high heeled, thigh high patent black boots
and a short jacket in a assertive kind of way. I got some kind of feeling
of sexuality about her. The woman was taller than average and quickly crossed
the streets and pavements.

She had a too provocative make-up to normally be seen in public, like a 1980ies
pop stars. I was puzzled and tried to guess what she was doing. Was she
a prostitute? No, that didn't fit the picture either. Was she a general
sex symbol?

I wondered if my interpreter overlay was wrong.

Somewhere along the way as she walked by me with her right side to me, there
was a shift. I didn't really felt that I was click out, it was more like a
change of place and person.


The woman was now black. She was less provocatively dressed and not as
painted with make-up as the "southern France" woman.

The black woman walk on the pavement, then entered an open area and went
down some stairs into the basement of house with a red brick facade. I
think she had a small purse or bag at her left arm.

I got the impression that she entered a party place. It had been day light
outside, but in this party place it was much darker. The place was lit by
some disco lights and some lights at a bar.

I started to talk to the black woman, she was mid 20ies and seemed to enjoy
her time. She wanted to dance. The scene shifted several times. At one
point we were talking at the bar, at other points we were on the dance
floor. She kind of charmed me.

The shift of scenes made things a little difficult for me as I several times
failed to get exact impressions of the surroundings. I felt that there were
other people around us, but I couldn't see them. I made some retrieval
attempts, but had no go. It was as if I constantly missed the target and she
didn't seem too uhappy, so I couldn't figure out what these events were about.


Then my view changed.

The black woman seemed in some kind of pain, it seemed terrible. It was
either her stomach or chest that hurt. I wondered several things. Was
she shot? Knife? It seemed bad.

Somehow I was outside in the dark night, with her, between the walls of
houses. I was a black male now, with a big hair, like 1970ies style. The
black woman sagged to the ground and I gave her some support and hug her.

I saw lights and silhouettes of people in front of me. But I didn't get the
impression that it was Helpers. Could it be ambulance personal? Police?

I talked to the black woman and told her that I would help her, I would
get her to stand up.

Somehow we was standing up and the scene had change again. I must say that
my vision was very poor at this time. I could only make out that the black
woman was standing in some kind of light. She seemed much healthier by
now, almost like her injury was gone.

I saw her both in third person from her front and I was also standing at
her left side, giving her some support.

She started doing small dance moves in the light and looked happy.

Pheww..?

I didn't do as well as I have done on other retrievals.

The scene faded.


The view of the lights of people in silhouettes came back for a moment.
They scared me by unknown reason. I said: "I face you!"

The faceless silhouettes stopped and my fear disappeared in an instant.


I tried to find some of my old guides. I saw Markill, he always looks like
a British aristocratic brat. He did some energy work to me, mostly to my head.
Perhaps he didn't need the help of the theatre woman, or perhaps Markill
had advanced so he was allowed to do these adjustments on his own?

I was really puzzled by the events surrounding the black woman. I just
guessed that I had made some kind of retrieval as I had gotten some
physical goose bumps at various places during my actions and specially
at the end. But the scenes had changed too rapidly for me to be happy
about my actions and I had already forgotten some parts.

I tried to reach for Tom Hanks, the theatre lady, for James May. When I came
to Stephen Fry I started to get some answers, but they were very hard to
understand. S Fry's answers are within rounded parenthesis.


Me: "Was this a retrieval?" (*mumble* Yes.)

Me: "What happened? Was she injured?" (*mumble*)

Me: "Why was Fran there and the woman with the high boots?" (*mumble*)

Me: "Was it an Aspect retrieval?" (Yes, from current life.)

???
I was really surprised.

The black woman seemed so full of life and charm, that I had a hard time
getting down that she was an Aspect of Self, so I asked again.

Me: "Was she an Aspect?" (*mumble* Yes. *mumble* There are yet more Aspects.)

Me: "Was it an Aspect of me?" (*mumble* *incomprehensible* Yes... *mumble*)

I asked Stephen Fry several times and he answered at all times that
it was an Aspect of me, and he used the expression "from current life",
point in case. He never said "from YOUR current life", which made me
wonder afterwards if it was an Aspect of me, but from another incarnation
at this point in time, if that kind of retrieval is possible. My definition
of Aspect of Self may have to go through a severe revision...


Me: "But she was a woman! Can I have a female Aspect of Self? (Yes.)

I had a hard time swallowing this down. The woman was so much more full of
life and so much more sparkling that she didn't compare to my own dull self.
I did my best to accept fact in order to avoid the session melting into a
garbled mess of disbelief. So, ok. I had a female, black Aspect of Self.
I could believe in that. Next you just tell me the moon is a Swiss cheese
and I will have no problems stating that in court.

I believe.


Now I surprised myself with the following question.

Me: "What's her name?" (Ametyst.)

Uhh..

This took me by surprise. An Aspect of Self.. Can they have names of their
own? I got little suspicious.

Me: "Is that name a riddle?" (Yes, it's a riddle. You have to figure it out.)

I asked some more questions and tried to say the name in various ways
to see if I could get any clue to it; AM-E-TYST. a-ME-Tist, Ame-Thyst, etc..

A me - Tyst ?

I never figured it out and eventually abandoned the session.

At the end I saw Ametyst one final time in the light. She looked very happy,
kind of radiant. She reminded me of the singer Beyonce, only with bigger,
curly hair. I got a ton of goose bumps running all over me.

Perhaps she was off to Party Land in F 26?


Whatever that event was, you can guess as well as me. I did try to merge
with Ametyst, but we never really joined, or at least that's how I saw
the situation developed.

I wonder if she felt hurt because of a broken heart?

AMETYST SECOND MEETING + SHORT ALIEN RETRIEVAL

In this session I stated as usual that I was open for anything, OBE,
healing (self & others), getting info, removing obstacle (self & other),
personal growth (self & other), retrievals, including of aliens,
energy work (self & others) and being open to anything else.

So this is the first session I explicitly included doing a retrieval
of an alien, meaning a non-human being.

I also wanted to ask questions of the being I got the message was called
Ametyst, a black woman, who I had been told was an Aspect of Self of me.

After quite some time, I eventually saw the guide with name "Stephen Fry".
I wasn't completely coherent as I was close to sleep, on the border of
dreamland.

I remember asking S Fry about a concept I heard on a forum about
"hiring & firing guides". As S Fry is a guide, he might of course be
biased on this matter. But I got no answer from him. Perhaps I saw a
small frown on his face, but it could as well be my own doubt on the
matter of me making decisions about guides.

A little later into my session I would get info which pointed me in a
direction that it probably would be bad for me to make any such "hire/fire"
choices of my own.

I also tried to ask S fry about Ametyst, but didn't get any new info as
I remember.

Scene shifts. S Fry is gone.

I am on a street somewhere in a town. The scene resembles to some part
what I saw at my first meeting with Ametyst. She is also close by and
quickly moves down some stairs onto a basement area. I follow her.

Perhaps it is dark as she holds her left palm on the wall to her left
side as she descends the stairs. Here hair is like a big fluffy ball,
and she holds a small purse by a strap over her left shoulder. She wears
a black, body tight party shirt, perhaps partly transparent in nylon (?).
And she wears a short black skirt. She radiates some kind of female
attractiveness. I just have a slight feeling that she gives away that
radiation with me as a target, but I'm unsure.

Most of the time down the stairs and into the basement of the building,
she has her back to me. We move through a dark tunnel and eventually I
think we arrive at a party place, with a low ceiling. At some point I
feel that part of the place has a ceiling in the form of a low canopy.

Shift of scene.

Somehow we have left the party place. Are we standing on a flat roof top?

Ametyst climbs the metal ladder a few meters up a wall to another roof
top. Ametyst seems very happy, radiant.

I now see the same silhouette persons as I saw in the alley, the first time
I met Ametyst and she had dropped to the ground. I felt some kind of fear
for the silhouette persons. I decide to walk to them. My fear disappeared
and nothing happened.

I looked at Ametyst. She really looked happy and healthy. Then it dawned
on me. Her answers withing parenthesis.

I said: "You are a guide!" (Yes. *smile*)

I could feel that she had a lot of positive energies.

If she was a guide, I could ask her anything. In February I had asked my
guides for how long I should do daily energy work in order to be able to
OBE. At that time I got the answer "half a year". That meant I would be
ready to OBE in August. I wanted to know if that time schedule would work,
so I asked Ametyst:

"How long will it take before I can OBE consciously?" (Five years. *big smile*)

Ouphh...

She had mentally kicked away my feet. I had thought she would answer with
a much shorter time period. Was she joking, or perhaps she didn't know
the answer?

Or maybe it was 5 years, but in February other guides had said "half a year",
to keep me going with the energy work?

I was puzzled and may have clicked out. Could the previous session's
"retrieval" of Ametyst have been some kind of lesson? A test?


Change of scene. I could feel some kind of presence around me, probably
guides. I got the impression that they did adjustments to me. I asked
them if they could show me what they did and how they did it?

I was lying on my back and people was standing around me. They seemed to
wear some kind of protective suits, like surgeons. Someone was drilling
in me with a power tool. Then someone else started to saw in me, perhaps
in my leg with an electrically powered (?) saw.

This was just too weird. I got it, that they were "working" on me, but
the saw gave me some kind of horror movie association so I rejected my
view and requested it to be rebuilt.

Almost same scene.

I was laying down on my back.

This time all my body was covered by a grid pattern, like a go board.
I had go stones at many places all over my body. I could see hands from
guides. They placed go stones on the intersections of the go grid. It
must be the hugest go board I've ever seen, and the go board was clearly
asymmetric.

This was probably my guides way of telling me that they did lots and lots
of modifications to me and that their work was very complicated, beyond
my understanding.

For the reader: Go is like chess in principle, with the difference that
in go you have to take control over the go board as a total where you
maintain a "balance" where you have more control than you opponent at
the end of the game. The go board can be made arbitrarily large so the
complexity can become much greater than in chess.

To me the go grid structure analogy was clear and quite genial.

I looked for S Fry. He appeared.

I asked S Fry if he knew of others who had gone through the same degree
of modification as I had. S Fry answered that he knew at least 10 persons.

Maybe he was joking?

I asked S Fry how many people he would say had been modified at any extent
by their guides, including also very small modifications. S Fry looked out
into the air and answered:

("Must be millions.")


Ok.

So it is apparently quite common for people to be modified by guides, but
my modifications were bigger than usual. After all, I had given my guides
free hands to do anything. :)

I got curious.

How about Robert Monroe.

I asked: "To what extent had Monroe's guides modified him?" (He is one of the 10 I know of.)

Me: "Ohh..? How do I compare to Monroe?" (You have very poor astral abilities.)


Thanks, that was an answer. Perhaps I should have avoided that question? :)

Perhaps S Fry was joking with me on this issues. I had the feeling that I
should view his answers on a symbolic level, rather than as absolute numbers.


I lost it somewhere here. I looked around for other guides and by some
reason saw the "theatre lady", the one I thought looked like she originated
from France. I wanted to know her name as I knew the names of the other
guides and I think she was important to me.

I asked: "What's your name?" (Helga.)

That sounded like a Germane name. I remembered that she had said that she
was the same woman as the Norwegian teacher lady I saw around Mo-i-Rana at
a parking lot in Norway. Helga could also be a Norwegian name, which would
make sense, as Helga had had at least two incarnations.

Or was she German?

I tried to ask some more questions but mostly got my own mind garble.

I had had a very long session and was drifting, so I decided to abort or
at least take a break. I went to the bathroom, now completely in C1.


At my bathroom I saw the government-agent-looking guide of name "Tom Hanks".

This is the second time I interact with the astral from my bathroom...

It was Tom Hanks who prevented my from going to F 27 through the
dome, some weeks earlier. I should also mention that Tom H was the
one who brought me to F 27 at least on one occasion before that, on
my Werewolf Aspect retrieval.

I saw Tom H near me, from mid chest up. He was wearing his regular
black suit, white shirt and black tie. He just looked at me quite
indifferent. With my eyes mostly open I proceeded. His answers are
within parenthesis:


Me: "I have a question." (...)

Me: "You stopped me from entering the dome to go to F 27." (Yes.)

Me: "Why did you stop me?" (You had told me so.)

Me: "What? Who told you to stop me from going to F 27?" (You.)


Uhh...

I realized in an instant that if I had been unable to communicate with
my guide Tom H, and just followed the "hire & fire" concept, I could easily
have "fired" quite a lot of good guides before I would have realized what
I was doing...

Me: "Can I go to F 27 now?" (Sure.)

I didn't follow it up at that point, as it was enough for me to know that
I could try to go there if I wanted.


I went back to my bed, still in C1, and continued my session.

I remembered that this was a special day, as TMI had requested meditation
help. I wondered if I had done any help at all, as I mostly had asked my
guides questions for my own good. I asked out into "guide space" if I had
helped TMI at all and got a big "Yeees!"


Stephen Fry reappeared. I wanted to talk about alien retrievals. If it was
possible for a Homo Sapiens to retrieve and alien?

I said: "I want to do an alien retrieval. Can I do that?" (Yes.)

I had meant to do it at some future time, but suddenly my non-physical
non-visual vision changed.

I was in some kind of area with rocks on the ground. I never figured out
if I was outside or in a big cave. I sensed no walls, but it was a little
dark.

In front of me was a kind of Worm-Slug. It was difficult to estimate its
size, but perhaps the Worm-Slug was as big as a regular dog, or maybe a
tiny bit bigger. The Worm-Slug consisted of at least 4 long "worm" segments.

I couldn't see the farther end of the Worm-Slug, and it had no eyes, no nose
and no mouth. It's front part seemed to be like an almost flat surface and
each segment of its body had asymmetrical flat surfaces and edges.

Apparently I looked like a Worm-Slug myself.

I tried to communicate to the Worm-Slug as it hovered with its front part
over the ground. It seemed to notice me in some kind of way.

Almost immediately 4 other Worm-Slugs emerged, two at each side of my
original Worm-Slug, who now seemed less alone.

I also got one kind of surprising feeling.

The Worm-Slug didn't have to move from an Alien-F 23 to an Alien-F 27.
The Worm-Slug's change of perception was enough for it to be surrounded
by others of its kind. It was almost like it never shifted Focus Level,
at least not in a Monroe sense. I just think it shifted its state of mind
a tiny inkling.

Clearly this alien Worm-Slug must have had only a basic animal mind.


That was an interesting alien retrieval.

But I had expected someone with more human intelligence, I also realized
that I didn't do such a specification. Maybe I need to be more specific
in the future about what I wish for? :)