hi i've asked god to let me have a near death experience during my operation in hospital so i can talk to him and jesus as i am so unhappy and down,i hope god grants this as i really need to talk to him and jesus

i want them to tell me what to do,how to get through life as i don't know anymore,i'm getting so tired,i just want to go to sleep and talk to god and jesus,so i do hope that i get my near death experience during my op.

love and god bless ,and may god bring me the light  love juditha

I didn't know you were facing an operation, Juditha. Sending good vibes to you, for whatever it is. We all love and support you here. Maybe you will receive the vision you hope for even sooner than you think, so just stay open for a visit, no matter where or when it may come. At least, that's what I think about it. Life can be full of twists and turns and I sure get tired too, sometimes. But, basically, all we have is the day, this moment, and we just have to make the best of it. There's a reason why we're here, I'm sure of it.

juditha,

"i want them to tell me what to do,how to get through life as i don't know anymore,i'm getting so tired,i just want to go to sleep and talk to god and jesus,so i do hope that i get my near death experience during my op."

Feeling down and out, drained, hoping for someone to show you the way, waiting to be saved, sounds familiar. Long story short, placing the power to do something about your life into someone else's hands, can also block the best one fit for the job out - having unique first-hand experience and knowledge about this topic - you. I'm not into religion, so I'll put it this way, family and friends can only go so far to help, one also has to help oneself. Not expecting to reach the goal in one giant step, but break it into several steps/part-goals, keeping the eye one the mini-goal, divided into a manageable piece, working at it, keep working at it, reaching a point closer to the main goal, feeling better, moving on, reaching another point, gaining confidence, moving on.

juditha, You dont need a NDE to speak with God or Jesus. There are few lessons that can be learned in an easy lifetime. Especially important lessons. All you need do is open your heart to the love and to the communication.
No matter how hard you may believe your life to be, you are never alone. 

b2 volu and hawkeye(joe) thanks for writing back to me and i know what you all have written makes a lot of sense,its just this weekend i have absolutley longed for death.infact this death wish has been the strongest it's ever been,i don't feel so down today,yesterday i was on the wine,it was the only way to cope with it but i do feel better today

i should try and remember that god and jesus listen to me all the time,thanks for all you encourageing words that have helped me to think what life is really all about love you all god bless  love juditha

Are you still painting? I liked the bunny. :) I really did.

hi b2 i am doing a portrait of a very famous woman in the old century that helped the poor having come from a wealthy family,her name was octavia hill,she's well known in england were i live.its going on exibition in the summer,when i finished her i will put it on here so you can see it.

love and god bless   love juditha