I began automatic writing in hopes of finding my higher self or spirit guide. I began to imagine the words I needed to write as if they were answered by my spirit guide while also listening to a Tibetan Buddhist radio show. Suddenly I hear the word and see the word Ayedeva. This isn't mentioned on the radio. I am not sure if I spell it completely right. I write this word down. Next I am urged to write Gita. Gita is repeated several times and then I get thoughts of Boddhivista Boddhivista, then repeated Sanskrit. I also think Tibeten Monk, Hindu Hindu.  At dinner I ask to myself what is your name. He says, "In my language" then he says Sanskrit. I look up the word that I first wrote, Ayedeva which didn't turn any results. I tried Ayadeva and then I found something. I was also tempted to write something with a P but couldn't make it out. Then I found Jayadeva and he was a sanskrit poet. Among one of his compositions is the Gita Govinda. Connection? I also found his wife was Padmavati, which seems like similar to the word with the P...then other thoughts came to mind. "I have a family." "I taught myself Hindu." I'm really just going by intuitive thoughts.  The name came sort of out of the blue. I also had a page out that said to ask your spirt guide's name. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jayadeva
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gita_Govinda
Today I began to try and meditate. I lit three candles burned some incense and had a statue. I sat in front of my altar and asked, Who was I in my past life? Ayadeva! Ayadeva! But then I begin to think it may have not been Jayadeva with a J. Possibly that was my name. Then I'm reminded Jayadeva was a sanskrit poet. I also found out that Ayadeva can be somewhat translated to - sacrifice to god-
I'm wondering if anyone can give me advice, since many of you are very good at communicating with spirits, of how to contact this spirit successfully. I'm very new to this sort of thing.

H Curious-  you might check out the following link

www.sacred-texts.com/journals/ia/banav.htm

"Arya" is Sanskrit for "high" or "exalted", while "deva" is translated as "spirit" or "demi-god" or "god". The pronumciation with the suppressed letter "R"  would be "Ayadeva" in Pali, as opposed to Sanskrit.

A person who spoke Pali would have to learn a "Hindu language" (of which there are several, Hindi being only one) in order to read the Vedantic writings such as a Bhagavad Gita. Just as Latin and Greek were the languages of schiolarly writing in the West, Sanskrit is the language of scholars in India and vicinity.

Because the Buddha was a Hindu brahmin, the entire Hindu culture is pertinent to Buddhism, although Buddhists deny it, just as a lot of Christians forget that Christianity is simply a form of Judaism in which the Messiah has arrived. And, in the same way, Islam is also a form of Judaism, except in that case the Messiah was named Mohammed. That's why there is so much emphasis on Moses and Abraham. (For the rest of the Jews and Muslims, hang tight - He will be back as soon as you're ready. The Messiah, or Christ if you prefer, is simply a projection of God into our world, which occurs constantly.) There's a line in the 'Gita spoken by Krishna,  "In every age I return, to restore the Law, to reward the righteous, to annul the sin of the sinner."  There's more but I forget.

Anyhow, Aryadeva was a teacher and bodhisattva, and studied under Nagarjuna. The timing places your recall at roughly after the time of the 'Gita - 540 - 300 BC, which corresponds with Budhism's expanding influence in Northern India under King Ashoka, and roughly in accord with the life of Nagarjuna, founder of the Budhist Madhyamika Prasangka school of Mahayana Buddhism in Tibet at about 150-200 AD.

Whether that's you recalling your own past or a spirit giving you a few prompts to get you to look into various things is something you'll have to discover.

To get back to whatever it was, one way is to write down your intention to understand, using a new pen and clean paper. Dip the paper in a glass of water, thus making a causal connection that your psyche can chew on, drink the water and go to bed. In general you'll get dreams that start giving answers.  As you sort of become half-awake, write down whatever it is. Your automatic writing skills should be very helpful.

Of course this is an imperfect approach, and simply to learn to meditate more deeply would do more. Bruce's "Home Study Course" and a little experience with retrievals would definitely help in that. And there are a few other options available.

Thanks for sharing!  - I'm interested in hearing how it all turns out later.

dave

wow.  You're amazing. Thankyou so much.