Hello everyone,

 I would like to enter this here, even though it may not be a dream. I couldn't think of anywhere else to mention it. Last night, I felt that I may have started journeying down the river of Styx, although it's more likely than not just a dream.

  Over a week agao, I was fired from my job at my local Walmart photo lab. I was there only a couple of weeks. Everyone I met and talked to loved me and thought that I was doing a great job. Everyone that is, except for the dept. manager. She called me into the store manager's office and told me that she appreciated the work that I did, but that it wasn't working out. So she fired me, to everyone's amazement.

  I was so overcome with grief, that I cried and felt worthless. Then my wife makes it worse by complaining about the bills and how we may lose everything. I've gotten to the point where I just want to go to the otherside and leave this cruel world now.

 As I lay in bed, I felt myself descending into the etheric plane and passing numerous beings that lived there. I asked if it was possible to find someone that could help me cross over to the afterlife? My vision in this world was not too good. Just shadowy images and such. I remember making my way to where there was running water into a tunnel. I went into the tunnel and travelled a while until it seemed as if it wasn't going to end.

  That's when I decided to give up my journey and get out of bed. When I picked up my head, it felt as if I was pulling away from another dimension or something. I also thought I caught whisperings of people saying "can he do that?". Then I went into another room in the house and figured it all to be just a dream.

Sincerely,
Ralph

  I forgot to mention that I was lying face down on the bed. Normally I sleep on my back. Maybe it has a significance.

Ralph

Hi Ralph,Please dont take your own life,even though its hard for you at the moment,you have to live out your life,as before you were born, you chose your life,you would live and all the problems in it,i know that sounds hard,but thats the way it is for all of us on this earth plain,our spirit has to experience emotions and experiences,as we are learning all the time,until it is our time to return to spirit.

I have also lost my job,which i thought was going well for me,but it did not work out that way and i felt down and depressed,felt like ending it all,I am still out of work,and my husband has been at home for two years bacause of an accident at work,and we are struggling,with bills,but you just keep going, as it gets better in time.

Just hang in there Ralph,something always comes along,ask spirit for help to guide you in the right direction and you will receive an answer,if not straight away,but you will, as spirit do try and help as much as they can.Your spirit is just learning something at the moment as we all have to.Have faith in God the divine spirit,he is always listening,ask him to send you love and healing as well.

Love and God bless you Juditha

Hi Ralph, yes I hope it's not dragging you down for too long, I remember your previous posts had a feeling of lightness and serenity coming along with them for me.

I often go into tunnels when I'm out there seeking something, mostly when I state I'm ready for a retrieval. These tunnels have either to do with the circumstances of the retrieval, or they are somehow related to searching/moving. It also often happens to me that after moving in a tunnel, I become impatient because it just seems to have no end. In these cases I state: "I want to go to the target this tunnel is leading to" and it works, sometimes there is an end of the tunnel, sometimes I sorta break out of the tunnel and teleport somewhere.

Regarding the position you lied in bed, I remember Monroes first book where he told of a nonphysical place he called "Locale 3". When he was separated from his physical body, but stayed in the place of his physical body, then turned his etheric body around the long axis to 180degrees, then a hole appeared through which he moved to "Locale 3", which was a physical seeming world, with other technology but humans, and he slipped in one of the humans there but didn't know what to do then, because he not knew this person or what this person he "overtook" was supposed to do.

Spooky

  I am trying to find the place where I went and found the river, but no luck. I had some other lower excursions since then, but not the same place. However, I did manage to find my way to the library of the akashic records. I should have wrote this sooner, because now I can't remember what interesting things I came across while I was there. Maybe I should use a voice recorder and capture the moment. Then write it down at a later time.

Ralph

Hi Ralph
please look at all the support you have here! I for one have just been caring for my hubby for  years as he had depression and was suicidal and now dealing with my borther's attempted suicide.
Your family also love you and unfortunately it's not till you get to an all time low that you realise how much your family and friends love and care for you.
could you possibly consider the idea that everything happens for a reason. My personal belief is that when we get "off track" on our life's purpose, we are given little boosts in the right direction. (this ties in with what Bruce writes I believe)
Sometimes we get "it" and sometimes we don't. I think you need to be open to the idea that you can change how you feel about this to a positive.
isn't there anything you wanted to do and never had the time? What are you good at that other people admire you for? Can you make money from this?
You are obviously good with people and they like you! So can you work from home?
Just recently, I was cleaning to make a few extra dollars, but after a car accident, and being in hospital, I realised that everything was being put in my path and pointing to giving up the cleaning, so I chucked it in! We are now struggling with bills and my income has reduced by quite a bit, but I  know that I am being given the opprortunity to turn this into something I want to do instead of somthing I feel i need to do! i want to teach, so i am in the proccess of doing a course which is recognised nationally (in Australia) and I will be able to teach for any training organisation.
I do hope that I am making sense! sorry if not!
Just know that you are supported and cared for!
with love
Cathy B

Hi Ralph  :)

May i humbly say to you; it seems like you are going through the Fire of the flame that is releasing you from the grip this world has on you.  It is the sting of Scorpio, and yes it stings badly, it is the purificatory waters of testing and trial.  It is the path of reorientation that transforms the Scorpion into the Eagle.  It is the sign of death of the material into the spiritual to come out triumphant as the Eagle soaring above the mountains.

You might say 'oh great' but hang in there dear Ralphine know that one who goes through these testings is greatly loved and nothing is given to us that we cannot handle or take the challenge to overcome.

River Styx?  Quite a profound dream you had there.  In Greek mythology, Styx is one of the five rivers of Hades (the underworld).  The Styx circled Hades nine times and Chiron (the wounded warrior becoming the healing planet) was responsible for ferrying the souls of the dead across to the infernal regions.  Infernal meaning hell.

It is very profound that you are feeling this Ralph.  This was the path of Chiron the wounded soul drawn into Hades - through despair and anguish.  Chiron transformed (through Scorpio) into the Healing Planet and ferrys souls across the Milky Way now.

Hades is likened to Pluto and Chiron is one of Pluto's moons.  This is a very recent event that Pluto has been banished (God look after you Pluto) and Chiron has become the Healing Planet.

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well, Ralph this is deep reflection and I have gathered you are a deep person.
May you be strong to ride the river of the Milky Way as a Eagle with the Light of Christ.

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May i humbly say to you; it seems like you are going through the Fire of the flame that is releasing you from the grip this world has on you.  It is the sting of Scorpio, and yes it stings badly, it is the purificatory waters of testing and trial.  It is the path of reorientation that transforms the Scorpion into the Eagle.  It is the sign of death of the material into the spiritual to come out triumphant as the Eagle soaring above the mountains.

Hello augoeideian,

  I am totally amazed by your response. Before I even had the chance to read what you wrote, I was laying in bed and meditating when I got a vision. I was told that I will receive the gift of the eagle. The experience profoundly improved my future outlook, and I woke out of bed with too much energy to sleep.


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Hi Ralph please look at all the support you have here! I for one have just been caring for my hubby for  years as he had depression and was suicidal and now dealing with my borther's attempted suicide.

Hello Cathy B.

  Don't worry. I never even considered suicide over losing my job. I am strongly against doing such an act and would never do it under any situation. I may have a craving for the otherside at times, but I am willing to wait until my proper time. It was only a dream that I was mentioning and I know that dreams can not kill you. I am for the most part an eccentric explorer who likes to take calculated risks from time to time in order to get extra wisdom about the connection between this world and the other side. I am an old enough soul to know when to get when the getting is good. I've had some demon confrontations and also met angels, but I stand my own ground and never give up hope in any situation.

Sincerely,
Ralph

Nice to meet you Ralph  :)  It takes a strong person to eccentrically explore.

my respect to you
caryn

Thank you caryn.

  My horoscope sign is scorpio so I guess that fits somehow. The reason I say eccentric is that I sometimes cheat to gain access to the other side. That's the risk I'm willing to take because time is running out in the physical world to accomplish what I need to know. I am not abusing my health in any way. Just dabbling with a disassociative drug called dxm. So far I have had tremendous insights into the other side. I know I shouldn't do it but my desire to explore is too great.

Love,
Ralph

Ralph, sounds like Graham Hancock exploring on DMT .. sometimes our 'minds' are so entrenched in the mundane that it needs this to loosen it (not for the faint hearted or under-aged for sure)

You did mention the Akashic Hall of Records .. which i would like to ask you about ... any information that is.  And your further insights would you like to write about them here?

(it is said the burden of knowledge is weightful... )

Thanks for the connection Ralph.

Hello caryn.

  I was fortunate to find the Akashic records the other night. I don't remember anything useful yet. I'll have to set up a planned meditation soon to try and make the connection again. I have a voice recorder that I'll try and use while I attempt again. I'll let you know what I discover when I achieve success. Thank you for caring about me.     :)

Love,
Ralph

Ralph, of course I care .. I care very much .. and I understand.  I understand some worlds cannot be shared and the act of sharing them somehow makes them tainted (if that is the right word) but i also understand carrying knowledge can become heavy on ones psyche - this site is very understanding, there are profound people here and it is as a spiritual family.

It takes a strong spirit to reach the records and deeper worlds.

I care about where you are going in the other worlds.  I sense you are a old soul and so you know what is mis-leading and what is not and your experiences will not be patronised or be-littled.

My love in sincerity.

The plant which glows as bright as heaven
On a clear and star-filled desert night
Its brightness confounded to eyes of man
Is grasped in jaws of that black snake
Held fathoms neath the ocean of despair
Held in bitter waters known but to one
That man half-god, wild-eyed with loneliness
That man half-god who longs for soothing death.

  I just woke up from a deep meditation. The aliens are controlling us and I now have there power to see what is really happening. We humans are all under their control.

Love,
Ralph

Hey Ralph

That's interesting it's exactly what Graham Hancock saw as well.
mmm .. im wondering if they will control us only if we believe in them?

Ralph, its wrong for me to say .. believe .. because you see them and Graham has seen them so its nothing to do with belief - they seem to actually exist.  The thing is where do they exist - this is what im trying to figure out ...

  It's all just delusions that I get with the disassociative drug that made me say that the aliens control us.

  I am sorry for having said that. On the lighter side, I feel that aliens are trying to help us along the way towards universal harmony. I would like to have the experience of meeting them someday.

Love,
Ralph

Ralph! you teasing me  8-)

Graham wrote a really good book about exploring while on dmt, he admitted his health did suffer so please take care.  But like you said earlier you know what you are doing .. still its harsh and not really needed to explore .. you know i have to say that.  

Ah Ralph, from what i have learnt it seems that aliens exist in parts of our DNA - you can switch them on or you can switch them off.  This is maybe a whacked theory sure.  Drugs seem to switch on them.  I thought maybe you were exploring esoterically ... passed the aliens that is.

But Ralph we all resonant to different things and i know from past post you like the idea of aliens so whom am i to say what you must think.  It's just me; personally i do not think that aliens exist ... it is said there is no technology in heaven - just pure spirit and soul.

There are other non-technical things around so i reckon one must always be aware of all the dangers here and there.  Hey but you might convince me otherwise that there are aliens helping humans. lol.

Nice to chat to you.

My love
Caryn

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Graham wrote a really good book about exploring while on dmt, he admitted his health did suffer so please take care.  But like you said earlier you know what you are doing .. still its harsh and not really needed to explore .. you know i have to say that.

   Good morning Caryn. And good morning to everyone else, as I have something important to say. Right now I feel like God has given me a second chance to make amends. I nearly died last night, but through the grace of God I am still alive.

  I was so overcome with sadness that I overdosed on DXM (cough medicine) and layed in bed patiently waiting for the end to arrive. I went through a complete dying process, where all of my body functions were turning off one at a time. I started experiencing spiritual music and entities at times during different phases of the process. I figured that my life insurance would gaurantee that my wife could keep the house and the rest of my family would carry on without me, for I am what society finds as a freak of nature, and thought that it would be best for everyone if I were to Disappear.

  I know that everyone is thinking how self centered I had become and you are right. I do have alot to offer everyone on this side and just have to keep trying until my life situation will improve. Fortunately for me, God is forgiving and gave me another chance, since I am here now alive and writing this to tell you that I was very wrong in thinking that everyone would be better off without me.

  I promise to never dabble with DXM and cough syrup ever again. I will continue pursueing the other side the proper way like everyone else does; by honest meditation and exploring. I want to apologize to everyone; both on this message board and my friends and family to fly right and keep straight. Life is too precious to sacrifice, no matter what the circumstances.

Love,
Ralph

Ah Ralph, im glad you didn't do that .. who would i talk to about aliens?!

Hello caryn.

  Thank you for your support during my stupidity. I love you and everyone else on this message board very much and from now on I will be doing the right thing.

  I found out today that I have an appointment to see someone for a job interview at Kmart tomorrow afternoon. It seems that opportunity does knock at the right moment afterall. I hope I get a job and can start my life on the right track again.

Love,
Ralph

That are bad news and good news Ralph, bad that you have been, and/or still are in heavy life and personal struggles, good that you obviously have gained a sort of clarity through your recent experience; the knowing that God is forgiving, that's the best.
Were you at a point where you were asked to make a decision if you want to live or die? It's just I had that once- I don't know what would have happened if I had chosen to die.

Spooky

Hi Ralph and Spooky

Hope you well and ready for what comes our way today.  Thats great Ralph - i'll be holding fingers and thumbs for you at your interview - remember that you are loved and cared about and nothing is impossible.

Well, here its a long weekend, monday a holiday, think im going to sit under a tree and take in this beautiful world of ours.

Hope you have a great weekend and as we relect upon light and love so it will come to us.

PUL
Caryn

Dear Ralph
I am so glad you seem to be feeling a little better
good luck with the job interview, and I hope all goes well.
with much love
Cathy B

Hi Ralph, how are you .. hope you had a good weekend?

How did the job interview go?

PUL
Caryn

Hello Caryn,

  I'm sorry about the delay in responding, but this is the first opportunity I've had to access my computer since September 21. One thing that I didn't mention before about my overdose in September was that I was taken by ambulance to the hospital and had my stomach pumped. They convinced me to volunteer to go to a mental health rehab facility for attempted suicide. I just got back home from there today.

  Needless to say, I never had a chance to go for that job interview. Even though my wife and I need the money, she wants me to not worry about finding a job for awhile until I feel ready. I feel ready and able right now, after over a week of "Shady Rest" therapy and sitting around. I plan to never get depressed over money again.

  I'm now back to my old self. I look forward to meditation and exploration again, but without the chemical cheating. Someday, maybe I can save up enough money to get Hemi-Sync® CD's. Right now, I have an "electronic brainwave synchronizer" that helps in meditation, using binaural beeps in headphones and LED light glasses. I especially like the Audiostrobe® CD's that I bought for it. I'll post again on the dream sharing forum as soon as I have a significant dream again.

Love,
Ralph

Hi Ralph

It is good to hear from you.  I didn't realise that you went through what you just have  :'(

That is quite rough on your psyche and your spirit must be feeling like some calm rest and a strong pillar to lean on after that.  May you find this calmness in the simple things in life; nature, the sunset, the sunrise, the wind and the rain, a loving exchange between friends, a nice meal and a good book.  Take each moment as it comes and live for the moment, theres so much connection to life in one moment, one second is fill of life.

Money is one of the biggest cause's of stress and I can understand this.  It is good to view money as a means to an end only.  Positive thinking in each moment will attract and supply what you need.  You need a home to stay in; it is not you need money for your home to stay in .. the money is the means to the end of needing a home to stay in.  Therefore you are not looking for money but you are looking to stay in your home.

Keeping this train of thought will help take away the power of money and translate it into what you want and need in life.  Remember money is just the means to get want you want or need.  So instead of concentrating on I need money, I need a job.  Try concentrating on I want a nice home and I want a fullfilling occupation that will fill my days with fun, happiness and even challenge.

Money will supply the outcome of what you want and need.  Every moment think postively of what you want and see it coming to you.  See yourself in those surroundings what you want.

Now you have put your wish out there start looking for the signs that are coming to you in order to realise your wish.  Be alert to every opportunity that crosses your path, look at everything that enters your life carefully.  Your Angels have heard you and have set the ball rolling it is now up to you to recognise the things that come into your life from this point on is for a reason.  To help you get what you want, the things that come into your life are unique for you only - this is your natural attraction to your higher spirit.  And it all starts with being clear and positive with what you want and believing it will happen.  

You are a Scorpio Ralph and Scorpio is a warrior that emerges triumphant from the battles that come to us in life.  You a person who deserves way better than the struggles of life, don't let them conquer you, rise above them with positive thinking and believing higher help and higher love does exist - it just waiting for you to ask and recognise it coming to you.  Keep your life simple with these thoughts.

Your in my thoughts Ralph and any time you want to talk, here we are.
May you be comforted and loved every moment of your day and night.

PUL
Caryn

Hello Caryn,

  Thank you very much for all of your kind words. What you said was taken to heart and I cherish your sympathy. You need not worry about me any further though, as I have eliminated all ambition to take my life  since that last incident. I guess you could say that I got it out of my system, have learned my error in thinking, and look forward to a long and enlightening existence in this world until my proper time actually arrives for crossing over to the other side. I'm back to my happy, optimistic self and will never consider something so stupid again.

Love,
Ralph

Hi Ralph  

I am sure there is much you can share with us as well.  I promise you my life is no bed of roses either  ::)

The thing is we are all in it together and we help to carry one another when one stumbles and the other is strong to carry until the strong one also stumbles and the other one becomes strong to carry.

My love
Caryn