Hi, I have had an ongoing pit about the pointlessness of life since I was a very small child...and just feeling like I want to be rid of this body, because I find no purpose for it. I am 20 years old but I feel like I am an infinite age...time goes and goes and I just see every interaction as meaningless. I don't like being in this mind set, but I almost feel like it's just my lot in life...it's very draining and feels inescapable. I found Bruce Moen's site as I was googling and found it quite interesting. I am definitely wanting to read up on and explore these areas that you guys talk about. If someone could give me some pointers since I am just getting involved, I would greatly appreciate it.
Alanna

Hi heirloom,

I would say, get some of Bruce's cds and start trying retrievals. You sound like you would just love to help some other souls get to where they need to be.

We are all here for a purpose, dear one. Each person who comes into our lives walks up to us with a beautiful soul enclosed in a body just like yours. We all wonder why we are here, at this time, in this place.

Love is Real. Welcome.

blink

Hi Heirloom-
Welcome.  Blink's remarks are to the point. With rare exceptions requiring clinical interventions, depression is usually the result of looking inwards too much and outwards too little, and usually with an attitude that is too critical and rejecting, but insufficiently loving and accepting. A friend of mine expressed it,"When you are tired, or lonely, or sick, do something nice for somebody, quick." It isn't quite as effective as Prozak, but there's no side effects except feeling good.
love ya-
dave

welcome Alanna http://images.bravenet.com/common/images/smilies/wave.gif

when i was in my twenties I had some of those thoughts and feelings too. as I was pondering about being nothing, having no body, etc, I received an image in my mind I've never forgot that I attribute to a guiding influence or a nonphysical being helping me stay in life.
heres what the dialogue was like:
Me: I want to go to the other side.
Helper: you want to what?
Me: float around with no cares because theres no meaning here. I don't want to be something. Iwant to be nothing.
Helper: look at the speck of dust floating. want to be that?
Me: maybe.
Helper: but the wind takes it where it will.
Me: it doesn't have control?
Helper: no, it doesn't even know its a speck of dust, let alone have control.
Helper: at least now you are more than a speck of dust and  theres a chance for you to do and be and see and feel and know and taste. the dust has no such chance, for it would have to be nothing forever according to the one who chose this.
Me: well, I guess its better to be me than it is to be nothing. then I could feel a smile coming my way as I don't remember thinking this. I just remember the fed up part as coming from me. helpers are there when you get despondent. when you change yourself on the inside people start responding differently to you and theres meaning in that because they are looking for the meaning in you. hugs, alysia

thanks for the insights, guys. i am really glad that i have been drawn to this community. makes me feel kinda isolated from  the world, but i think there will be a positive integration. i see no other way.
oh wow, i have been obsessively reading Michael Newton's "Journey of Souls" and "Destiny of Souls" today. Wow, it's pretty incredible. i'm going to have to post about it under the relevant discussion board.
alanna

Hi Alanna,
for me the following worked:

--Try to develop a sense for the feeling that makes you feel bad. So that you can notice it when it's about to get stronger. When you sense it, try to go in a obeserver-mode, so that you could talk like this: "Ah, there it is again. I notice it. I know it. But I will not allow taking me over. I look at different things and keep it at distance."

--Think of the possibility that your life has a purpose. You just don't know exactly what it is. It could be a part of the purpose that you don't know much about it. But once it will become known to you. Meanwhile, keep on living. It will not last forever. Just day by day. You can make it, even if you don't know what it's all about--yet.

--You don't know the purpose. So, for now, make the best out of it. You can set it up for you like a game. I suggest you "pretend" to be polite, nice, honest, helpful, smiling at other people. They just like that, and it's easier to do than you might think. The reward comes often immediately. It's a good game to play, you'll like it.

I read "Destiny of souls", it's impressive, yes. I remember that little story about the person who was astonished when discussing/reviewing his/her previous life, astonished about the importance of "little things", little, but done personally with heart (helping someone with some pennies and/or telling the right way to go as far as I remember), rather than impersonally with money.

Spooky