Vicky, will definitely hold you in healing thoughts, prayers and meditation. 

  Diet and nutrition may help some too, and if you ever want to dialogue about some of that stuff, feel free to bring it up.  Not sure if you are into the alkalizing concepts, but it's often particularly crucial in cases of cancer.

With Love

 

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Hey Justin,

Thank you.  Yep I'm into that stuff, try to follow it anyway just because of my type 1 diabetes. 

Thanks for keeping me in your prayers!

Seeing you strong, seeing you well, seeing you victorious, Vicky. It is not an easy path to face, but you are clear headed enough to walk through this tough time -- and you have those who love and need your presence in their life to help pull you through it. I have watched a loved one face a mighty battle for several years, at an advanced age. She is winning the fight. You can do it.

Also, get everyone you know to send you every funny thing they come across, the whole way through your treatment. Humor, positive images, sharing a laugh is possible no matter what is going on in your life. Encourage people to do that, and share with them as well. It helps.

I was going to put the link to an article I read today here, but it seemed like a little much... it made me smile. It was about a goldfish that had just had a big tumor removed from the top of its head and everyone was celebrating that it had another 10 or 20 years left. It's owner was so pleased. A goldfish.

With love.

Sending you some love and positive intent from across the pond Vicky.

Vicky wrote on Sep 16^th, 2014 at 10:17pm:


I'm fine thanks Vicky- been busy with a new job. Coincidently (or not!) I picked out and read your book again a month or so ago and had been thinking of how you have dealt with your psychic experiences and health challenges as we are about the same age. The fortitude and determination you have shown in your life so far will stand you in good stead as you return to good health. Please be assured that you are never alone (even though it can feel that way sometimes!) and many (physically and non-physically) are rooting for you. Keep us updated on your progress. Dave.

Matthew,

I love your positive focus.  What you're saying means so much to me.  And I couldn't agree more.  When I feel myself feeling sadness and despair I remind myself that I believe deep in my heart that this doesn't have to end badly for me and that that's not what I choose, "so don't focus on that Vicky".  I've been consciously telling myself not to think of myself as being sick, being a cancer patient, because I don't want to allow my mindset to change from what/who I know myself to be.

I did that when I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes at age 27.  Everyone felt so sorry for me, and I just treated it like "Oh well, this is what I have to do now" to take care of myself."  I didn't think of myself as any different than before.  So now with the cancer, I am continually looking at the future of this illness being over and done with, like an annoying bump in the road that I will pass and leave behind me, because I have a life to live and there's still so much I wanna do here.

Thanks for your kindness and support Matthew 

Hi Albert,

Thanks you for your healing and prayers.  I'm so open to receiving those intentions as well as kind words of encouragement.  It really helps me mentally and emotionally.   

No I haven't really heavily researched alternative treatments.  I've looked into anything I come across but I'm not looking for something to replace the path of the medical treatment plan that I'm on.  In fact, I just got a call telling me that the chemo and radiation will be starting on Thursday. 

I'm a medical transcriptionist for a living....would have gone into more of a medical profession had I had the nerves and stomach for it.  So I really do believe in medicine.  That's not to say I don't believe in alternative medicine, but I want to take the path of aggressive treatment.  I've looked into all stages of what I'll be facing.  I'm ok with it.  I'm not scared of it, just scared of complications I guess.  It's like I always say, I'm not scared of heights, it's the idea of falling that I'm scared of.   

I agree, it's an individual's decision.  Also, one can't know how they'd feel and what they'd choose unless they were actually going through it for real.  When I was hit with the shock of knowing I had cancer growing in me for the past year without even knowing it, I just wanted it out of me as soon as could be.  I know that I wouldn't have the time or patience to do lengthy research, not even wanting to take the time to travel to other states to get other opinions and whatnot.  I just wanted to begin treatment ASAP.  And I really have my faith centered in the fact that I think my choices in life are balanced with what my Guidance  knows is best.  So I feel that my Guidance is always helping direct me on the right path for me.  I know I can't sit back and wait for it to tell me what to do, I have to make decisions and create movement in order to give my Guidance a framework with which to communicate with me.  It's hard to explain I guess, but that's what I believe in.  I hope it makes sense.

It's kind of like, you know how you can have times when you can't decide between two things, so you just pick one and then you suddenly feel a feeling telling you, "not that one, pick the other one".  That's just an example, but that's what I mean.  We have to "move" and then we are open to nudges and suggestions and whatnot. 

Most of all I'm just trying to have the best attitude I can.  I hated the feeling the first few days when I found out.  I hated feeling so defeated, so sad, so angry, so scared, feeling like my life was over.  I'm glad I didn't stay in that mindset very long.  I can't live like that.  I need to be proactive.

Anyway, enough babbling.  Glad you're here Albert.  Always nice hearing from you.

Hello Vicky:

I hope you are doing well.

It's good to hear about some of the positive results.  Losing weight is a good side effect of being sick, unfortunately it's easy to gain back once you become well.

It's a good thing we aren't actually bodies. They can be quite troublesome.

Besides the annoying stuff, glad to hear you're doing well Vicky, been thinking about you some here and there.

Checking in after being gone for a while. Sending healing energy your way. Stay positive!

Vicky wrote on Jan 22^nd, 2015 at 12:58pm:


  I'm doing fairly well most of the time Vicky, though materially i sometimes lack for money and sometimes experience a sense of loneliness, but having realized somewhat recently that i came into this life from a very different system of energies than the ELS, well i suppose that's to be expected.  Sometimes i really miss the group(s) i was part of before. 

Same question here.

seagull wrote on Jul 14^th, 2015 at 7:48am:

Vicky:

Overall, circumstances aside, it sounds like things are going okay.

It's good to know you are making progress, step by step. I am happy to know that other positive things are happening for you, and that you and your family can look forward to the future.

I have a family member in the end stages of ovarian cancer and it has been a long road together. I am glad I have found a reasonably strong belief in an afterlife so that I can feel encouraged for her, knowing that all will be well.

Stay strong, love, Seagull

  I wish we had "like" buttons on here like facebook.  All good to hear.

  We are, not much all that interesting going on though.  Thank you for the well wishes.

Vicky:

Good to hear that your doctors said you have every reason to consider yourself cancer free. I suppose that in some ways your experience was another growth possibility.

Thanks you guys 

Hi Sanatogen, thank you.  Yes, quite unforgettable since it's changed everything, the biggest part being how I think about food.  And the chemo affected nearly every part of my body, so this whole journey sure made me have to be more aware of my whole body more than I was before. 

In fact I was just thinking yesterday how I am typically more happy of a person when I don't have to be bothered focusing on my physical body and physical feelings most of the time.  When I can just ignore the physical more and focus inward more, I find I'm much more at ease with everything.  Whether it's pain or just having to take care of business, it's very consuming of your attention and awareness to have to focus on the physical when you'd rather just let your thoughts and feelings wander to where they would like to be instead.  I imagine that's true for most people. 

For instance, when I had to wear the ostomy bag, for the first couple months it took up most of my day attaching it to my body to make it fit right, keeping it clean, and taking care of leaks.  It was a huge thing to learn to get right.  What used to take hours eventually only took minutes.  And now I don't even have to wear the darn thing anymore.  So yeah, the whole journey took me way way way off my normal course and onto some other road altogether, and now here I am supposedly back where I was before, except nothing's really the same at all because I am not really the same person I was before.  You don't just go back to the way you were before, nor would you want to.